......

was totally sick that day.had to be rushed to hospi.it was reali scary to have the feeling of like so sick.gastric plus bloated.i had to be under observation for the night and it was real BLOODy painful to be poked.OUCH.they had to put me under drip,and i swear i feel like kinda smacking that doc's face.the convo goes like this:

doc:so how can i help you today?where is your pain?

me: *pointing to the stomach* i think its my gastric acting up again

doc:so, why you are feeling pain there?

me: ya its painful....???

doc:so how do we ease you....?

me: ??????

dear doc,if i know what is wrong with me and how to ease my pain, I WOULD NOT HAVE GONE TO MAKE A 'SPECIAL' VISIT TO YOU RIGHT???!!!THANKS ALOT.

and you know i hate needles.that is one of the reason for not choosing the nursing course even i am eligible to.NO THANKS.i reali hate to see BLOOD.even b4 he injected me,i screamed out so loud that almost everyone could hear it.i am so sorry if that irritates you.my imaginary runs faster than reality.

doc: i can't seem to be able to detect your veins....hmm..

me: boleh jadi lagi saket aku tgk kau ni doc......

doc: sorry,what?...

me: nothing...*sickly face*

doc: cos your veins seems to be very small.....

me: is that my problem?...i dun choose to be that either...*mumbling*

and dad seems to give this dissapproving look to me from one corner..well,i am not mean, but you as a doc SHUD JUST SHUDDUP AND DO YOUR WORK.OMG.i swear i am so sick as it is already, so stop adding in!

and when he poked my skin,the blood kinda splatter abit*but not so tragic la..*but after which its soooo super painful that i cry my ass out.i guess thats the first time dad saw my REAL EMOTIONAL SIDE.MY VEINS AND MUSCLES WERE all stiff after that.....den dad accidentally knocked against my 'injured' hands upon walking towards the observation ward and that reali HURTS ALOT till i shouted out and everyone look at me like i kinda mad EMOTIONAL girl for the first time in my life.and there goes water fountain on my cheeks.........*sob*.dad was so scared that he kept apologising saying he accidentally did it.i felt sory for him cos i know he didnt do it purposely,DUH.

club 4 umz's 21st...

 saw this rabbits during my break at PP when they were having animal show.im sure aspa will like this if she were there.they are not normal size cos they are of mix hybrid and they were so huge.so huge as a poodle!

this week dosen't go well either.i am so blurr lately.i lost my ezlink.okay i have to tell you all that cos its reali important to me!EZ-Link!!!!*muke budak concession*, then today wanted to shop for toiletries,i thot, i THOT i bought shampoo but instead I BOUGHT A BIG BOTTLE OF CONDITIONER.baru je aku naksave duit buy big bottle of shampoo je,NO CONDITONER*trying to save money* yelah budget kan....tkpelah rambot pon dah haywire....skali.......CAN'T EVEN SAVE $!have to fork out more money later to buy shampoo!! &%$#*&&#%

i hope days ahead will be betta,&reali looking towards for this weekend!

xoxo

fieza

2011

2011 finally.there's nothing special that i wanted so much to happen this year,...BUT,I AM SUPER LOOKING FORWARD TO MY GRADUATION.insyallah i will graduate in April if i'm not wrong.YES.

its not a good start for me though.but hope there's a blessing in disguise.i'm down with fever on th 31st, last day of 2010 cos of my heavily pain stomach flu.gastric.after consuming the medicine,felt so drowsy and kept having hiccups.what the.ya for once i had no plan for this year's countdown,they last minute backoff,its okay,i understand,lucky they did,or else i would have sickly face going to countdown*im not the type who will turn down offers of going out.hehe* watch the channel 5 countdown show,fall asleep after about 10 minutes later.i think maybe becos its so not entertaining...bluek.okay maybe,we shud be there then better?real live performance?okay look, i hate to be hypocrites.niwaes,the show getting from bad to worst i think.oh well,then again its my personal view.but seriously,i would rather spend that amount of money,(i heard the tixs cost SGD38?)okay i would spend that money to club.okay even if one's not a clubber,i would spend it on hippo bus tour or duck tours???well atleast get FRESH AIR and atmosphere viewing the fireworks?if not,i would spend that money on FOOD (prangai piglet),atleast that amount of $38 can get me a nice decent DINNER.okay fine those who dun agree wif me and think that last nite performance on channel 5( exclusive of other places cos i never watch others,hehe) was great,gud for you then.

it was in my dreams though.aww so sad...*achoo* bye

whatever it is,HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!hope this new year's a good year for me,and years ahead insyallah.to all of you, HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A GUD START ON 2011!btw,i'm still thinking of my new year's resolution...tsk.hope you have yours!

xoxo
sickly girl

-_______- sunday

sunday is suppose to be a bright day right??a SUN day.suppose to be a day you are refresh from the whole week chaotic days right??

BUT IT IS DEFINATELY NOT FOR ME.

maybe i wokeup o the wrong side of bed again,or maybe,its just one of my very unlucky days indeed.i had not a good night sleep the previous night,so i guess it kinda makes me cranky in the morning.wokeup at 9 to have a good shower.so afterwhich, i thot my day will be GOOD.open the cupboard,all the pile up clothes literally dropped or to put it on the not so good term,it literally FALL AND sMACKED ON MY FACE.like a volcano erupt.okay look IM NOT REALI A SHOPHOLIC*self defense*.I AM SO PISSED OFF WHEN I COULDNT FIND MY BEIGE PANTS!!IT WAS NOT THE ONLY PANTS THAT I LOIKE OR WHAT,BUT IT WAS MY only WORK PANTS.i had that only piece to make it as my working pants as the work require me to wear that colour.F*** off OKAY.i kept digging for it for about 15 mins when i reALISE IT WAS REALI NOT IN IT, screamed for mum's attention and asked her whether she saw it.IT WAS MORE PISSING OFF WHEN SHE SAID SHE DUNNO ANYTHING ABT THE PANTS.OKAY LOOK,i reali hate when i asked something important/was desperate looking for it and people DUNNO!i mean yes for sure my attitude sucks at time but i reali hate a not definite or negative answers!!!!!pls for godsake dun ever do this to me at the very last minute.and i suspected SOMEONE STOLE MY PANTS as my mum hang it out at the corridor to dry it.cos it was there all along two days ago but this morning,it was not THERE.OHMYGAWD.CAN YOU GUYS PLS GET YOUR OWN PANTS??!

later at work,the stupid idiotic machine just finished the whatever license on me when i was about to bill the first customer.lucky enuuf that woman was not the 'kiasu receipt type of person' when the system was down.then, there were exceptionally LOTS of customers bloody test my patience today!THANKS FOR MAKING MY LIFE MORE MISERABLE.there was this particular customer who had to try EVERY SINGLE SIZE of the same design and THAT REALI PISSED ME OFF.then there was this particular idiots who used dunno what kinda language and REALI DUMB OR WHAT.he can simply said he wanted to exchange his gifts or what cos the size is not appropriate,but you know what he said???:  REFUNDd*in his accent*?????refund????can you pls GOOGLE THE MEANING of refund b4 using it.WOW REFUND.den my colleague had trouble tracking down who did the cashing in.WHAT A HASSLE.

during lunch,i reali dunno WHAT TO HAVE FOR LUNCH,and when i find something that i wANNA EAT,mee bakso,WHICH IS LISTED ON THE MENU AND NOT CROSS OUT (not available) or anything,according to the woman'' BAKSO DUN HAP*deep accent*...for 5 minutes i looked at the menu and was like..WHAT?!den asked whats available...EVERYTHING ELSE AVAILABLE,EXCEPT BAKSO.HOW IRRITATING CAN THAT BE??!ITS JUST NOT MY DAY!!!!!FASTFOOD IS DEFINATELY OUT.after an HOUR of food hunting and realised my lunch hour gonE, grab my colleague's food back at the shop,she den told me there's a nice LAKSA CORNER few steps away from our shop,so looking vexed, i just followed her recommendation.went to the shop and was like''can i place my order here?''the lady was like ''ya here''*pointing* then when i asked for what i wanted,she replied''CLOSED,sorry''AGAIN,WHAT????!!CAN'T YOU JUST TEL ME IN THE VERY FIRST PLACE THAT YOU ARE CLOSED???!!!OHMYGAWD REALI TESTING MY PATIENT. NOTHING ELSE TO BUY, decided to buy the next door ICE BLENDED CHOC WHICH COST TERRIBLY EXPENSIVE FOR A MINUTE CUP which i can finishup within 10 mins at MOST.that area im working reali have no gOOD HALAL FOOD AND EXPENSIVE

and btw, why some people simply ignorant when it comes to money??? when i paid first for it  means i paid first,YOU PAY ME UP AFTER GET WHAT YOU WANTED right.it dosen't mean I TREAT YOU???i am excepttionally mad when i am broke and people keep using me.okay maybe you forget to pay me,but to me, the moment you take the thing from the person that paid for you,you'll pay right away!that's the procedure right??okay even if you have not enuff cash,then tell ME,''i pay you later/next time.''okay its a small amount but when i am broke,every single cent matters right??i mean no matter how broke i am, will be independent and will not borrow/use anyone's money unless its reali emergency and i will take note of it and will not be peaceful until i paid that person.

OMG.if you are my bff,its okay,but I LITERALLY KNOW YOU NOT THAT VERY WELL.damn.
-____-then, there were those who look at me, one of a kind,LIKE I OWE THEM A LIVING.BITCH.

dear god, pls forgive me for all my sins.

for girls/ladies/women entry

FOR THIS POST,I HOPE YOU IGNORE IT OF YOU ARE OVER-SENSITIVE ENUFF.

fine this may be random fact,but i just wanted to share wif the ppl out there.whoever interested to read this.i'm not referring this to any particular person or whatever.but i am VERY PARTICULAR ABOUT PERSONAL HYGIENE. I DUN CARE IF YOU LOOK LIKE A MODEL OR WHATSOVER BUT THE FACT THAT YOU NEGLECT YOUR PERSONAL HYGIENE,THAT REalllly STINKS.

I AM THE DEPRESSED girl working arnd people wif POOR personal HYGIENE.OKAY FINE not ALL of them are,but MOST.teen girls.few years younger than me,or some about the same age as me.dressup quite pleasantly,looking hi-tech and modern and stuff*if you noe what im talking abt* but the moment THEY passby you, all i can say is,GOD BLESS THEM!ALAMAK,THE SMELL IS WORST THAN DUSTBIN OR SOMETHING.unpleasant,DUH.naseb la aku keje part time je,...have to endure them for awhile and not the WHOLE DAY!i think i can faint from suffocating if have to breathe in that not so fresh air the whole day!

OKAY girls,I'M NOT SAYING I HAVE PURRFECT SMELL,OR SMELL OF THE PARADISE,BUT PLS,at least we smell pleasant enuff to people,THAT'LL BE GREAT. I WILL REALLY APPRECIATE IT,to achieve that, i dun need you to splurge unecessarily on branded perfumes etc.dun need to get PARIS HILTON PEFUME,DKNY PERFUME,GUESS PERFUME,OR EVEN ESPRIT PERFUME.LOOK,that WILL NOT BE THE SOLUTION.people do mistook things,whay they think is,perfume will make them smell GREAT,SUPERB!WELL THE FACT IS.YOU ARE WRONG.PERFUME CAN ONLY ENHANCE YOUR ALREADY 'NICE NATURAL/ARTIFICIAL BODY SMELL'.& IF ONE ALREADY HAD B.O(body odour),PLS,AFTER RUNNING 5KM OR 10KM,DO NOT SPRAY ANY PERFUME ON YOURSELF.THAT WILL JUST MAKE IT WORST.I SWEAR.

LOOK,EVERYONE HAS B.O.it is a thing that you can never run away from.EVEN MS.UNIVERSE HAS IT.chk it out if you dun believe me.try smelling them when they haven't had A bath.the only difference is,HOW STRONG IS YOUR ODOUR COMPARED TO THE REST.this depends on what you eat actually.my mum always tell me that.cos the acids or whatever chemical that is burnt out from your body is from the INNER YOU.and thats what you eat!(i'm not personal nutritionist or what but ya,i used to take F&N,for 'O' level and learn alot bout it,so ya,dun blame me for all this talking).

but its okay,yes we can't really limit to what we eat and also control it,BUT YOU CAN CONTROL YOUR B.O.A simple start would be proper bathing,NORMAL SOAP(SHOKOBUTSU OR WHAT)dun really need the expensive ones like from body shop or what,seriously.AND THE NEXT MUST FOR LADIES/GUYS) ARE.....OUR NEXT BFF,MISS/MR REXONA(FOR MEN's pls google the image yourself,tyvm)

OKAY,that dosen't mean only REXONA, any deodarant brand will do,NIVEA,lady speed stick,etc....but  I am a big fan of REXONA.so yeah.*promote jap*AND tHE best part is the deodorant can last u the whole DAY LONG AND CAN USED FOR A MONTH *even if you go out everyday like me*and that rexona cos only SGD 3.15( if im not wrong)SO PLS GIRLS,IF YOU CAN SPEND ALL THE MONEY ON CLOTHES AND MAKEUP,why not invest that LIL' amount on something which will do GREAT TO YOU!IM SURE PPL AROUND YOU WOULD APPRECIATE IT,...cos usually you yourself dun SMELL IT,PPL ARND YOU DO -______-THEY CAN'T GO ARND TELLING YOU ''EH BITCH,U SMELL SO BAD,AS BAD AS MY DOG'S POO'' RIGHT??that will be totally mean thing to do and i'm sure you dun want that to happen to you!and the worst if the opposite sex of you tell you that,I THINK YOU'LL FEEL LIKE HIDING YOURSELF UNDER THE BLANKET FOR THE NEXT 3 DAYS.IM SURE OF THAT -________+......

and ofcos,whats blog w/o photos right???here you go!

RAPUNZEL:THE ENTANGLED TALE WAS TOTALLY AWESOME!!! oh yeah!we bought the drink set and got the toy/cup!!!oOOH that reminds me of it,i dunno where ive placed it.

 and ya, i wanted so much to watch this movie!angelina is totally HOT MAMA.

I went,no i mean my skool had this trip to URA(uRBAN REDEVELOPMENT AUTHORITY) where all the models of builidngs in SINGAPORE ARE PLACED!chkitout my house!!!somewhere there i guess...AWESOME MODEL PLAN.IM AMAZED!

ohmygawd!i miss IKEA HOTDOG BUN readi.dammit.btw,had no tyme to grab a bitE of the meatballs!!!shud have bought it takeaway!(muke gelojoh)

newborn baby Q!*hugs & kisses*

my newborn nieeeeeeeeeece!i feel like squeezing her cheeks!oh ya,she got our cheeks genes.got you!the mouth maintain eh.*looks like my dad when she's sleeping*

my cousin's daughter with the 'whatever' girl.she can sleep peacefully even with loud noise.i blast music so loud she just peep her eyes open for awhile then continue sleeping.WOW.i love you nieeece!

QAISARAH ANIQAH

i think kids are super smart nowadaes,with newborn niece,my nephew is getting jealous or what??he simply dun let me off to play 'soccer' (kids way) wif him whenever i wanna go and peep Qaisarah...its okay,i still love you Aiman!but your parents that makes me think twice about loving you more.HAHA

I'M LOOKING FORWARD LATER!GONNA CATCH my MOVIE.HAHA.I  remember telling nani ''eh cerite aku dah keluar di pasaran''AND SHE GOES ON LIKE ???? HAHA! see you nani!

PS: just becos of YOU,we have to do all this SHIT,pls be considerate when it comes to FYP.its not AS IF we DO IT,YOU DUN BUT YOU STILL GET THE SAME GRADE AS US?PLS DO FUCK YOURSELF UNDER THE TREE.*TRAGIC MODE*im so gonna slap you next time you open youR MOUTH unnecessarily!