talking point plus ranting time again

ladies nite at ** ***** wasn't dat great last night i can say.i enjoyed 60% of the whole thing.i dun reali noe whats wrong wif me lately cos i dun enjoy clubbing as much as i do last time.reali am sick and tired of it.okay especially LADIES nite wif free entrance,u can see lots of ppl getting in the club.its totally crowded packed wif the bitches.i was dragged there.dun reali favour that club cos lots of certain race in there,who reali got on my nerves as they dun noe how to dance but ACT like one.okay look, im not saying im a good dancer but at least, well at least i can dance appropriately and shake the butt!HAHA.they dun even have the butt to be shake off *okay what kinda english was that??*sorry la.mereke sungguh tkde bontot ye.sungguh flat.com.and their dance,alamak, like so papan la.was dancing so semangat until when abt one point if time,the crowd gets bigger and there seems no space for us to dance la.seriously i hate this kinda situation.usuali other clubs me and frens will be conquering a big space to dance.maybe due to the clan that i went wif ytd.was wif the kentalS classmates.according to them, they need to drink to be drunk to get 'high'.bla bla bla.okay look, i dun believe in that.SERIOUSLY, if u can dance well,or even can just dance,u dun need to get high.rubbish okay kental.tsk.only the nyah boy can dance w/o any reason.LOL.

I dun drink.that is something that i can be proud of for the past few years ive club, neve did i touch a single drop of it.sorry la eh whatever u wanna kol me kental or what i dun drink.cos i still hold to my life principle and i hold to my religion view in a way,yes i may be wild in terms of club,smoke,or whatever but i noe drinking is one of the biggest sin in my religion.haram according to my brother.hehe.the reason for this blog entry is,i kinda felt bad for myself,sometimes i realli dunno what kinda person i am.i always do pray hard to be  a betta person,to be betta in my knowledge for my religion,to be a betta muslim,but,when ppl trigger me to club*some negative influence* i can't resist it.but i thank god for giving me some guidance as not to astray too much,as like i said my wild stuff is that i love to club,i can't resist the temptation of songs and to dance to it.dats all,period.sometimes,i hope there's a club for muslimah to dance.muslimah pe.okay fine.then that place shall not be called a club anymore right?maybe shud be named like some kinda stress therapy class.LOL.and the dress code,shud be appropriate COVERED,duh.

anw,there was this bitch who stood at the podium ytd, clad in only a tube bra and seluar dalam.normal view  la the dressing but,astarfirllah.and the worst part,that stuff looks super cheap on her,seems she bought it at bugis st. for 10$ or something,plus her dance moves, like...omg.tk perlu eh CHINA LA.and nobody,inclusive of guys look or ogle at her,thats like super duper sad right bitch.tsk.i was about to puke when i saw that.gimme a break man.i just need to dance!

ppl of my race was very minute there.so there's these guys of my race and i can say of the same religion i supposed minum beer/alcohol  depan aku muke proud.alamak bang/dik,tk perlu kay tgk aku wif that look.like he was trying to say ''come ah join''.tknk kay.club isn't about drinking.

i dunno it just felt different clubbing ytd,cos i can't deny my clan last time was that kind.drinkers.but it dosent bother me,cos i noe i just wanna dance and when they got drunk, i'll just walked off to flare cab.you jolly well noe i hate it when you got urself in a hot soup for nothing.get drunk and needs help.im sorry dudes,i cant help you cos you bring it up upon urself.there's a choice for you to make.most of my frens know of my this 'annoying' diva attitude,but so what?, ive made myself clear i join you guys club not to be your bodyguard when you are down.im not paid to do that.talking about them,know what i dun miss hanging out wif them anymore,which i used to miss.i dunno where they are now,.whether dead or alive.i just pray that they are better individuals now.

they can say whatever about me not visting him behind those cells,and called me a bad fren cos to me,im sorry you choose to take that wrong path,you settle it yourself cos look,i've advised you enuff not to be that.it looks like my words falls on deaf ears.i dun want to lead the life you do.therefore, i take my leave aite.so you can say now that im cold blooded creature.with no feelings.thank god i neve did follow your footstep frens.im glad and content with a handful of frens that lead a normal healthy life and is there for me alwAYS.

im in bitchy mode again,sorry excuse me.cos i've just chk my fb and i dun realli like some ppl status updates and photos which they dun need to share aite.cos they stir up gossips right.
and know what, i have to let this off.
a true minah is...
- the ones who keeps denying they are not.
-the ones who wear tudong as and when they feel like to like its a fashion
-trying to transform to be good but they are not prepared yet and change mind again
-even when they wear tudong, they kiss their guys(w/o legal relationship ties) and post at fb
-they kept asking ppl to stop talking about them when they are the ones who post photos which are obsene and ask ppl to cermin themselves in the mirror becos according to them, others make more mistakes than them
-the ones who says other minahs is way worst attitude when they dun even LOOK THEMSELVES IN THE MIRROR which somehow reflect the previous
-shout/scream for no specific reason(can also be group with the lunatics)
-who practises for mini war with manual weapon *zaman anak metro*

i dun judge ppl in terms of their clothings animore,cos to me now, wear whatever you like cos its up to you to decide your life,who am i to judge you cos my clothings also haven get a passing grade from MUIS.so ya.but your attitude plays a very huge role in making you look like a minah.but the moral of the story,do not wear tudong if you can't carry the responsibility yet.its definately a huge responsible for you to carry once you decide to wear it.i respect those who can do it.

again,sorry for those who offended by the way i talk or offended by my views cos i dun mean it to offend anyone as ive learn that its betta to forgive and forget and dun bear grudge to anyone.again its just my point of view.up to you to agree with it.i just treat this as a learning point to share in my blog as nobody's perfect i know.i have lotsa flaws and so do you.

xoxo

21st, Egyptian Night

CHK IN.....

yeap,so here we are.my very own mini 21st celebration at hotel room.hehe.sounds sneaky right.okay,basically we eat,talk crap,lepak,photo-taking.not much though.the theme WAS EGYPTIAN.as usual most of them find a reason not to come cos of that.and those who came did not even dressup like one mostly.SAME GOES FOR ME.i didn't look so egyptian.anisah even commented saying i look greek plus egyptian.HAHA.i think i look so..PAJAMAS.like my dress is soon for going to bed.had quite lotsa fun having to meet the girls all together at one go!it was actuali suppose to be a girl's nite thing which i planned at the very beginning,but, obviously,its unfair for the guys right.HEHE.cos i booked a small room but thank god managed to squeeze everyone in!Once again, THANKS ALOT GUYS FOR COMING!deeply appreciated!

& THE PARTY BEGINS....

thanks nani for your help!*love u loads*& definately BIG THANK to my DEAREST ONE AND ONLY MOM 4 cooking all these DELICIOUS food.*love you to d max*& thanks to my annoying sis and BIL for the delivery!

cake cutting & open presents... (muke NAni excied)

thanks for the gifts.reali i dun expect that,i mean i just want to celebrate this occasion wif u guys.thanks again,every gift is special to me.its the thought that counts right.,THANKS ALOT. and to syara,thanks for the lovely card with emotional word inside that when i read,i felt DEEPLY TOUCHED.awww.love u!

the cake wasn't up to my expectation though.I WANT IT SIMPLE but not childish.but its okay la.it was not entirely the baker's fault.i didn't give a proper theme.due to my blurness.i totally forget about my egyptian theme till my sis remind me of that.but it was too late.the cake's been baked.so ya.no point regretting.but it tasted not dat bad according to my cuzs and some frens.so ya.whatever,again, its over.

now, i shall pray hard for the upcoming years of my life to be a betta person,to stay healthy and have all the love ones around me.amin.

break,where are you??

i need a break.that's what i need most now.oh well i jolly well know its just not time for me to have it now.not yet.i need to drain out all my ass off to do this.i mean finish this semester!and finish this dip!OMG.i cant wait to graduate.that is easier said than done.cos i have piles of project yet to settle.on top of it wif drawings to complete.whats worst, when everyone almost done with the fyp or even done,my group had to edit almost 70% of the work?!

i shall not whine.i'll try to finishup my bits and pieces of the dip.I AM SUPER TIRED.look, i dun even have time to do my facial mask nowadaes.okay i know thats not important. i have no time to upload my bdae photos.i know thats so backdated photos.but i'll do it when im settled down.i had no time to even comb my hair properly when im out to school.WAIT.i bathed.thats good enuff right even my shirts and bottoms i dun even care to choose and iron out nicely.*okay as long as i dun dressup like a minah or nyonya is good enuff rite*tyvm

i need to shower now,go to bed!tmr's another early day to school.i hope i do well for tmr's presentation*pray hard*i hope when im awake tmr, all the tiredness gone abit and all today's not so good experience wil be gone!nites!

xoxo
fiezahanafi

......

was totally sick that day.had to be rushed to hospi.it was reali scary to have the feeling of like so sick.gastric plus bloated.i had to be under observation for the night and it was real BLOODy painful to be poked.OUCH.they had to put me under drip,and i swear i feel like kinda smacking that doc's face.the convo goes like this:

doc:so how can i help you today?where is your pain?

me: *pointing to the stomach* i think its my gastric acting up again

doc:so, why you are feeling pain there?

me: ya its painful....???

doc:so how do we ease you....?

me: ??????

dear doc,if i know what is wrong with me and how to ease my pain, I WOULD NOT HAVE GONE TO MAKE A 'SPECIAL' VISIT TO YOU RIGHT???!!!THANKS ALOT.

and you know i hate needles.that is one of the reason for not choosing the nursing course even i am eligible to.NO THANKS.i reali hate to see BLOOD.even b4 he injected me,i screamed out so loud that almost everyone could hear it.i am so sorry if that irritates you.my imaginary runs faster than reality.

doc: i can't seem to be able to detect your veins....hmm..

me: boleh jadi lagi saket aku tgk kau ni doc......

doc: sorry,what?...

me: nothing...*sickly face*

doc: cos your veins seems to be very small.....

me: is that my problem?...i dun choose to be that either...*mumbling*

and dad seems to give this dissapproving look to me from one corner..well,i am not mean, but you as a doc SHUD JUST SHUDDUP AND DO YOUR WORK.OMG.i swear i am so sick as it is already, so stop adding in!

and when he poked my skin,the blood kinda splatter abit*but not so tragic la..*but after which its soooo super painful that i cry my ass out.i guess thats the first time dad saw my REAL EMOTIONAL SIDE.MY VEINS AND MUSCLES WERE all stiff after that.....den dad accidentally knocked against my 'injured' hands upon walking towards the observation ward and that reali HURTS ALOT till i shouted out and everyone look at me like i kinda mad EMOTIONAL girl for the first time in my life.and there goes water fountain on my cheeks.........*sob*.dad was so scared that he kept apologising saying he accidentally did it.i felt sory for him cos i know he didnt do it purposely,DUH.

club 4 umz's 21st...

 saw this rabbits during my break at PP when they were having animal show.im sure aspa will like this if she were there.they are not normal size cos they are of mix hybrid and they were so huge.so huge as a poodle!

this week dosen't go well either.i am so blurr lately.i lost my ezlink.okay i have to tell you all that cos its reali important to me!EZ-Link!!!!*muke budak concession*, then today wanted to shop for toiletries,i thot, i THOT i bought shampoo but instead I BOUGHT A BIG BOTTLE OF CONDITIONER.baru je aku naksave duit buy big bottle of shampoo je,NO CONDITONER*trying to save money* yelah budget kan....tkpelah rambot pon dah haywire....skali.......CAN'T EVEN SAVE $!have to fork out more money later to buy shampoo!! &%$#*&&#%

i hope days ahead will be betta,&reali looking towards for this weekend!

xoxo

fieza

2011

2011 finally.there's nothing special that i wanted so much to happen this year,...BUT,I AM SUPER LOOKING FORWARD TO MY GRADUATION.insyallah i will graduate in April if i'm not wrong.YES.

its not a good start for me though.but hope there's a blessing in disguise.i'm down with fever on th 31st, last day of 2010 cos of my heavily pain stomach flu.gastric.after consuming the medicine,felt so drowsy and kept having hiccups.what the.ya for once i had no plan for this year's countdown,they last minute backoff,its okay,i understand,lucky they did,or else i would have sickly face going to countdown*im not the type who will turn down offers of going out.hehe* watch the channel 5 countdown show,fall asleep after about 10 minutes later.i think maybe becos its so not entertaining...bluek.okay maybe,we shud be there then better?real live performance?okay look, i hate to be hypocrites.niwaes,the show getting from bad to worst i think.oh well,then again its my personal view.but seriously,i would rather spend that amount of money,(i heard the tixs cost SGD38?)okay i would spend that money to club.okay even if one's not a clubber,i would spend it on hippo bus tour or duck tours???well atleast get FRESH AIR and atmosphere viewing the fireworks?if not,i would spend that money on FOOD (prangai piglet),atleast that amount of $38 can get me a nice decent DINNER.okay fine those who dun agree wif me and think that last nite performance on channel 5( exclusive of other places cos i never watch others,hehe) was great,gud for you then.

it was in my dreams though.aww so sad...*achoo* bye

whatever it is,HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!hope this new year's a good year for me,and years ahead insyallah.to all of you, HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A GUD START ON 2011!btw,i'm still thinking of my new year's resolution...tsk.hope you have yours!

xoxo
sickly girl