impossible

is it so difficult to meet people?look, i never met him for so long.i even forget when was the last we met?look you are just another person in my life so i dun need to prioritse your needs and timings right?i dun hang out wif you guys dosen't mean i wanna push you guys aside from my life right?so dun friggin make assumptions?if i wanted to do that i would have long time ago.your thinking and mind just dosen't click anymore get it?ohmygawd.i felt like singing my hearts out the IMPOSSIBLE song to you.in shouting mode i guess.if you do have personal problems dun take it out on me.period.i wanna be a good girl?so what?its a GOOD positive thing.mind your own business.if you wanted to be baddies,by all means i dun care cos you dun owe me a living right?

i dun wanna meet you guys anymore.i dun wish to.im content wif a bunch of close buddies by my side.i dun need more than that for now.had lotsa time socializing with you.i had my time.im done for now.i want to change for the betta.i dun like myself.but have to be grateful for what i am.im a total failure.im depressed.LOL tragic.

okbye,
depressed idiot

the last day of attachment

 

this was my last final art piece at 'MDL' b4 i left for good.i did no work at all on my final day except for taking photos, counting down the hrs to d last hour...woots.

 

photos taken at the office..duh..so yeah.look at my selekeh messy hair day at verk! 

& these are the items i'm gonna miss there during my attachment: 

my dear laminating machine which i'm super pro at now...(btw i didn't take this picture.some ppl did it la and its in my camera.LOL)

my bestfren's list which i've written at the top and they laughed like no tmr when they first saw it.(THIS TOO WAS NOT TAKEN BY ME,IM CLUELESS)

and i added myself to the list for being a bhaiya for about two weeks plus one day.(THIS TOO!?)

the HK as i call it.whenever they say the name..i tend to laughed cos i can't forget how smangat chipette mix the thing for baking to give boss to eat duh....(THIS ALSO,NOT TAKEN BY ME OKAY.who did IT??!)

this caption is for the picture below, &ofcos the people...okay fine though some i dun like or used not to like and complain about, but by the end of the day...they are still my so called 6mths colleague.cos i realised that at times you need to really know the person longer and try find the good points of that person then you realised how nice some of them are indirectly...the photos include picture of the office people plus flower shop aunties and uncle. okay from left to right(i think): my assistant manager (wif the flag) which looks kinda kental teletubbies but he's really funny at how he talks about matreps and minahreps,i think he somehow has personal crush on them!HAHA.next to him(wif the flag);my manager a.k.a boss's daughter a.k.a gf of assistant manager, keep buying me food.next the popping out excited head is the admin.she's like a motherly figure in the office apart from the aunties at flower shop.next to me ofcos is chipette(she's nice to me lately)next to my left the so kental zaman 80an pose.hehe.(sorry sidetrack).is the uncle at flower shop,next, the two lovely aunties.right behind the strip auntie is the KONG.no comments about him (he keep smiling and giving this cheeky look b4 i left)i think he likes me away from the company.ok wtv.niwaes next is his bestfren which is opposite of him.so freaking nice to ppl.next is the new landscape designer a former police staff so you'll expect him to pose the way it is in the previous picture.

flower shop gang.& d bhai mcm paham pose.i just realised the strip auntie Angie is like posing wif one eyebrow up.how cute heh!HAHA.(btw, she's a fan of MJ)

a gift from the admin Ju & chipette!thanks eh!i didn't expect a gift hence after which i decided to purchase them a card to be shared the whole staffs.LOLprangaibudget.but pls okay the card is expensive for a thanksgiving card ah. -_-

 

after work, i had to go to an improptu dinner which i didn't intend to go but becos of goodie bag(muke kanak2) i sacrificed the night for some lame dinner that they had to represent the company for the housekeeping night for all the hotels in Singapore.becos our clients are mostly hotels, so they invited us for it.boss didn't want to go so the IDIOTs had to.heh heh.it was held at Conrad.i was only fascinated by the arts and goodie bag!weee~ picture wif the admin (we both dun dressed up for the event) a.k.a my bitchy partner apart from the boys(cos chipette busy wif the bf).i think my eyes is smaller than a born chinese person.ihateitokay!niwaes, our company staffs were the only IDIOTs dressed up shabbily i can say.except KONG's gf that came along wearing the theme, white kebaya. i have to admit although her kebaya wasn't that nice but she look great cos,well when a person wear other race outfit they will look outstanding right, in a way?btw,KONGs gf looks gorgeous in a way not like typical cina and erm..dosen't suits wif KONG.but what is love right?i know...okay niwaes if i knew about it earlier i would have dressed up according to the theme okay if not oso wear something elegant, formal & not like ''after work look''??at first i was malu.but then,i realised i was the youngest there and i need not impress anyone cos they all mostly above 30s..BORING...zzzZZZ.and i dun have to compete looking great & YOUNG?hehe.

the pianist wasn't concentrating when he played his pieces,so when he look up and saw us,the boy(landscape designer) and I were waving like mad dogs to him.we had to do some self entertainment b4 the start of event.so yar.i guess the pianist was shocked and surprised by our reaction thus smile plus waved back to us(cikopek look)

the theme was PERANAKAN NIGHT.nice!our table's 18 and the company won the 'lucky draw' & i know chipette wanted to collect the PRIZE so much but KONGs gf went up instead.okayla since she wear the theme let her be...but it wasn't really fair though to chipette(she's a staff of our company) cos she looks kinda jealous after the gf collect the price from the stage and received compliment by the host(oh well the host complimented on all winners but maybe in chipette's mind and by the way she look she know she would have received the compliment instead if she were to be on stage.hehe.btw, she's not wearing the theme but sexy maut wif the toga dress and her heels.well me and the boys busy checking out sexy nyonyaS to bitch about plus busy looking at the menu instead of hearing the prizes for lucky draw cos all seems to be the same dinner/breakfast at some hotel restaurants.boring!and i was giving this grumpy 2- yr-old kiddo look cos food was slow served!i mean,i fast the whole day,so that explains my monster mood!

at first they thought i'm non muslim???like HALO?im A MUSLIM.so after the appetizer,when the food looks kinda weird,i began wondering whether its halal??so dear admin who acts like my mom asked for me and the person in charge,a lovely indian guy wearing coat (looks more like a bodyguard)kept going to our table every dish ensuring i got my halal food!how nice is he right.i told my colleagues that i wanted to hug this indian boy for being so caring plus his good service and there they were,laughing like hyena!idiotS.

 

these were some of the items inside the goodie bag.BVLGARI toiletries,coffee, another pack of toiletries stuff ,tissue,bla bla bla...housekeeping stuff duh!

wait,those of you who are wondering what the hell am i doing blogging early in the morning is becos i can't sleep after sahur today though i didnt sleep the whole night,was out duh.

and ytd's nite...to release all the stress in me...i put on a lovely mask bought at SaSa!NICE!i feel so fresh after that!cool!

gadgetS!

i've been dying to have my own dslr one fine day.i know its overated now but i don't care.i want it not becos others do have it.i wanted it so that i might be able to take fine sceneries and views heh.i've like been surveying it the whole morning online duh.went to dp website where all the cameras review are.its interesting to know different types of cameras and their own speciality.so high tech heh nowadaes!(muke budak kampong)

and ofcos i have list some of them that i aim for.i would prefer mine to be CANON, delighting ME always..but i dun mind NIKON.according to my friends they are better at taking sceneries and stuff.so i have like canon EOS 1000D in mind.thats the cheapeast but ofcos its only like 10.1 megapixel and the focal point is not as good compared to others.next add abit more money get better view will be EOS 500D.thats not bad.but i wanted to get the EOS 550D!i think thats what nani has..okay if i dun get that i'll probably get the NIKON one.aiming for DSLR D300s!

but i'm also thinking of getting the olympus pen series,E-PL1!ohmygawd. i wish i had not taken driving license then all the money for practicals that dad gave me i can splurge on a GOOD camera.i think if i fail the next TP, i'm so gonna give up.take bike betta.thats my wish actually.but had to fulfill dad's wish first.but look, i cant seem to drive safely okay.my instructor's comment ;''eh ini mcm lu bawak olang boleh mati hor.heart attack!''(muke tragic).. tester;''you can drive,but speed control and safety check all gone!''thanks for the 'encouraging' comment heh.okay fine.i know, IM SORRY i tap oil so much at the start b4 you even put on ur seat belt tester.soreh,it was unintentional.he lauGhed like crap.forgetting that he was a tester,then back to his serious mode.LOL.BUT U MAKE ME FAIL!again.so i dun owe you an apology!biatch.okay soreh bulan ramadhan tk baik.

aniwaes,im so gonna watch STEP UP 3D!tmr is the releasing date.hope to catch it asap!they have lotsa nice interesting new songs heh!woots!own steps,club can't handle me,come and get it and more!!woots!i loike!i'm sure its gonna be a nice dance movie!see you soon step up!but too bad the actor and actress always do change.miss briana evigan fom step up 2.but the new sharni vinson is good too plus she look adorable wif the charming guy, nick!

one thing working wif aunties is, they are loving creatures.opps. i mean, humans.i brought some fruit tarts for them(flower shop) today and some to office. the aunties appreciate it and knowing that its my last week here, they bought me chocs and cake!aawwww.so touching kan! i loike! unlike the office people.only few appreciate it.some was like,''only cookies(tarts actually)?no kfc and stuff?PANTAT DORG OKAY IVE SPENT MONEY ON THE INGREDIENTS AND MAKING IT.SO TK MALU.OKBYE!
P.S: people at office were like,maybe becos you do them a favor like doing work for flower shop then auntie is nice...?oh well, pls dun think like that people, i dislike people who think that way cos sincerity is the keyword not motive.and the uncle here kept asking me whether i want drinks?how nice of you people!(cos i can't puasa today, they kinda buy me stuff to eat at flower shop cos i'm not like some retards who can't or dun fast and eat outside like nobody's business.how annoying!

chk2, got price tag.so expensive or what these things!ohmygawd.thnx eh! (muke delighted) yum yum!

xoxo
fieza hanafi

and here come ramadhan.....

 firstly, i wanna wish all muslims SELAMAT BERPUASE!!!niwaes, she's back from LONDON!woots! niwaes two days before, i got to watch streetdance 3D!its a niceee moviee u know!(malay mode).heh heh.worth the tixs.& i hope to dance like them!(berangan lebih)heh heh.nice steps and moves heh!i loike!combination of streetdance wif ballet!how cool heh!

back to the previous photo taken ytd when i was suppose to have a lunch break but since we are fasting, i met her up to follow her buy new notebook.this gila girl can splurge on some gadgets suke hati mak bapak okay.imagine her browsing thru ipad and thinking of buying it and holding the thing as if it cost 1$???!but i came to her rescue(for the first time about $ issue)by saving her some money telling her dat she dun really need it rite?she just need a computer?so yar.she bought asus.or whatever the name is.

 

& these gifts are for nephew & upcoming niece! (okay apology for the mak2's mode) but i have to be a fair auntie right?its actually Eman's bdae..but yar d lil' one in TS tummy will kick her if i dun buy anything for her?hehe.

niwaes, can i say something? like freaking something?on first day of ramadhan i had a test from god.like really a big TEST.i have to stand in for a bhaiya one day again at the hotel.so yar.that is the first TEST.next, some abg2,they tk puase okay.i dun mean to badmouth them but since i can't fast today, due to GIRL's prob.hehe. ya i can talk about it heh.(carik kesempatan). okay i just wanted to share this story.niwaes yar, i dun care if you dun fast or what but pls respect others who do la right?? they smoke, drink(green tea) not liquor.hehe.at my store.i mean our company's store behind the hotel meant for plant storage.these mamats are the technician or what from the hotel.iwassuperpissed.gave this this whatever look.one of them got the chick to ask me why i dun join bhaiya for tea break?like??okay helo kau tk puase sudah la,kau tkmo igt smue org tak kan??so stupid.den i was like? ''ah?helo.im fasting??'' den he walked away towards another guy and talk about me i guess?so wth okay.i keep telling myself...''sabar fiza sabar...'' HAHA. if not conferm aku blow up and maki muke dorg okay.

later, got this badan kong MALAY guy,from the gym corner i guess.he too didn't fast.smoking one cornar of the store.okay i mean its his business and prob la...i didnt do anything or say anything or even giving any face at him.but the moment i turn to look at him, he walk away, red face.hehe!malu nampak gang?badan je big puase pon tkle?malu you noe!even my neighbour the small boy fast!

okayla, conclusion is i dun care whether you fast or not,but pls dun make my store like your committing sin den??thanks alot.even bhaiya do show respect when im there,he ate one cornar not facing me.so i dun get you mamats!

and fasting is not a tradition, its part of the religion.okay  den again,i may not be perfect or nowhere near good but i still do the basic okay? well i just hope god will show them the right path one day.....& hope that we all make the best for this good month!

HAPPY FASTING & breaking fast!

xoxo

Fieza

girl's outingSs...

these are the people I met last wik.mon: wif marR went lepak session plus follow her buy bagpack,wed: aspa's mini bdae celebration on the 4th/5th Aug 12 am itself wif shabby,fri: miting my dear syara plus giving her d belated belated bdae gift plus sheeeesha session & ofcos sat,ytd: miting dear nani wif our shopping therapy!

i am superrrRR HAPpy for now cos my final report is finally done & submitted on the fri morning!superR duper relieve!oh no fyp Next...but nvm that can talk later.

alot of stupid things happen on each different mitups.funneh stuffs ofcos. i can declare that i HAD FUN on each mitups wif different ppl. and today, i dunno whether i want to follow wan to jb today for repair bike session...-____- see how my mood goes later.

& now.....

introducing my new pair of shoooggy, the CROCS.heh heh.i finally got it although i didnt get the one i really wanted.but its okay this is fine as long as not the cloggy type!HAHA.that is so burok okay...this crocs is super duper comfortable okay!i loike!

& shopping session ytd, i got myself my dear BABY-G longing for watch!!except i didnt get the white that i wanted cos one of my friend seems to have it,mane boleh same kan?cannot okay.HAHA.so got myself the purple cos its the NEW colour plus its so nice looks like metallic kinda! bff nani supported me on this.(yelah dia suke abiskan duit aku and aku pon suke abiskan duit dia) but initially i wanted to get the latest version the square frame one that is on ad everywhere wif 5 colours, white,black,pink,blue, green.the lime green looks sexiting.but from far....it looks kinda...bugis street watch.i hope you know what i meant.like so cheap which actually not la kan.more expensive than the one i bought. but i still loves the classic versionS.so unique!

& nani bought a pair of birkenstock slipper.soo comfy (although its expensive for a sandal/slipper) plus i loike the striking red colour!awwww.so nice!

but wait.can i say something.why there are super duper lotsa people everywhere in singapore??!like super menyemak ah!take ytd for example.

#1) i couldnt dispense my money from atm machine under my blk cos there was a supeeeR lonG queue of uncles and aunties plus matreps and minahreps.cos im staying near the area where all the malays loves to go during FASTING SEASON.yes.after 15mins of queuing i know im not gonna make it on time for my driving if i continue.

#2) taking cab after that.i neve like taking cabs except if i really have to.i couldnt get a cab becos it was so pack, jam ytd.thankS for staying near geylang area.this is what happens when ramadhan arrives.

#3) shopping centres were packed wif people,super duper polluted.

#4) area towards the town or no.city hall where all lots of events ongoing.YOG,NDP, the gantries for F1 being build up.LOTSA LOTSA PEOPLE walking EVERYWHERE.so damn suffocated okay?!

#5) and just look at the bay.dun you think the sea is getting smaller.the marina sands thingy being build up.plus shopping centres or whatever building that is gonna build next to it??!

COnCLUSION: i think i prefers to be indoor for the next few months.LOL.

books.my latest obsession.donated by the people from hotel.they (touristS) which depicts the book title, loves to read abit,DUMP the new books. so the uncle at flower shop my workplace loves to collect for me.cos the only person who seems like reading there is me?so yeah!got it.most of the books are thrillerS, its okay am fine wif everything as long as the plot is good! plus i love taking photos of sceneries (but not of myself pls people)

btw, HAPPT NATIoNAL DAY people! & to all muslimS, HAPPY FASTING! ^ ^

okay!plus baru je ckp.talking of the devil!there seems to be commotion downside(mamak style) wif music blasting like crazy??!NDP advanced celebration plus geylang opening stuff or what?!!! plus vehicles hoRNINg,traffic jam.so noisy la.shuddup okay!!! i need PEACE ON A SUNDAY!i want to migrate. +_0