have a bright day everyone!

lil sunshine,YOU light up my life!love you loads buckets trucks,

yesterday was spent quite wisely on these important things,*no,not all are mine,only one* anyway,bought sunflower by Elizabeth Arden.the smell was so cool,at the first spray,i was so scared it might turn out the erm weird unbearable smell but,it proves wrong, as the smell turns out kinda nice after afew minutes.it simply sweet soothing smell,not the one that irritates you,so hence bought that for my colleagues as a farewell gifts.hope they like the smell.i mean different people have different sense of 'nice' smell rite.

i decided to invest on a lil more expensive shampoo for myself as currently its in need of it.its for hairloos control and it has a good pH suitable for hair rnage from 5.3-6.5,so yeah,b4 i head to the salon this weekend prolly,i better start doing some justice to my hair,i bet my regular hairstylist will be screaming on my face again like 'WAH WHAT HAPPEN??'as if i have just fought in war and my hair was ruined part from the explosion.really i tell you,there is no other more Drama hairstylist than mine.where can you get that huh??

and lastly,i hope you guys have a great weekend!spend time in doing what you like most aite!i have a birthday party to attend tmr,i just cant take the distance of the place from my house,seriously,but for the sake of my best mate,i'll be there for you aite!!

time-off

words cant describe feelings at times,don't you think so?have you wonder at times how many people on this earth actually really care about you?your existence?i never really know that i had a number of people around me in life,but when i need them,little did i expect, only some are able to stand there by me.it never got into my mind,that there's some things that people wont really do for you.not all the things that your love ones will do for you.trust me.only did i realised yesterday,that the only people who will stand up for you be there when you need most,without asking you why you need that help,without thinking much to willingly lend you a hand when you need most is our lovely parents.i dont care about others who think otherwise for their parents but to me,to majority of us,parents are the best people you can rely on. my parents never turn me down when i need their help.never did once.i am thankful for that.so this time,when i need help,and they wanted to help but don't meet the requirement for age wise, i know they do feel helpless.but i know,if i ask, they are able to help,they will not ever turn me down. so there begins my venture of looking for potential 2 people.never did i know that its going to be difficult.i thought i do have quite a number of potential people around me,whom meet the criteria,but then again,it reveals the nature of humans.the basic human nature to one another.TRUST. what really breaks my heart is that people whom i expected to be there for me when i need most somehow question me when i need help,i do understand the thing that im seeking for help have consequences if i break it.i will explain about it before you agree to do it for me,but what really set me back by the unnecessary question that bombarded me with tears.maybe i was just being too emotional yesterday but how could people doubt me when the only question that i ask you was very first stage.like a yes/no.probing me lotsa questions afterwhich wasnt a necessary thing,it got me think,ponder,am i really that useless?people don't trust me?why?i never did anything that makes people mistrust me,having second thoughts about my words and actions when that some of them are having the same type of blood thats flowing inside me.where do i go to then if in future im left alone without my parents?i can't even count on them.where should i go to when i need help? i know some are scared of the consequences and stuff,i don't blame them.as human there's always this part of you that makes you think twice to help others when there's consequences.im not going to accept your offer of help till i really don't get one.i mean i will get the closest ones help first until i cant find one, only then i will accept your help.but they dont even offer to help.i wasnt looking for much.i was just asking you to offer that hand of yours.that,actually what really really breaks my heart.i need some time to heal that part,some time on my own... i used to have a handful of friends,now,countable,even then in life,friends might be there for you,most of the times,but some little teeny weeny part,there's always this part that they will have a reluctance for you.that 1% is always there,i'm not trying to say im the best,im the noble one.but if i fit the bill,i will open my hands to help.i will not think much or further consequences of doing it,cos know what,i trust them,all of my closest friend,even the ones who are new to me,but if i know their background,i'm willing to sacrifice anything for them as long its within my means insyallah.i know its easier to say than done.but again,i'm willing to do so insyallah.but it breaks my heart when they are not there for me.but i know Allah is always there for me.and Allah wanted to show me there is always a kind soul out there,to lend you a hand.my prayers were answered alhamdulilah.that people just never think twice or doubting me from the conversation i had with them.i mean,im so touched by them.really i do.i will always remember this for the rest of my life.thanks alot for being a good friend,uncle to me. im grateful for the help and i will always pray for them insyallah...

whitening stuffsss

these are last kopek of the photos that i have for that trip.these are one of the best food that we had there!for once,its superb.the price was awesomely cheap.RM25 for that.so its about say...SGD$12?or so?awesomely good.where can you get in Spore that kinda serving in restaurant based.and that pic, the photos im able to snap b4 the reflexology!akan aku buy tub and buat sendiri reflexology pat rumah!baikkk ah the massage was AWESOME u noe,the masseuse is from bali,she's so sweet looking lady and so polite that almost every second she smile to you.at some point of time i just felt that she must be some kinda statue or what smiling all the way? and this is the scariest part of the trip there,the people there at the resort,seems to know what we both have been doing.since the day we arrived there till when we are departuring. the resort is breakdown into like different hotel kinda,different concept and some is way down the hill.there were lots of incidents and convo that took place,so here is just one that i'll share,the masseuse who work at this particular shop downstairs our hotel knew that we did our hair the day before(the place that we did the treatment;the hotel area is down the hill) and even knew what kinda treatment!we did not charge the payment to our hotel room or what??so there is no like record system to it right?and there's alot more like the guy who brought us up to the hair treatment was having this convo with us in the lift; guy(usher): so ytd evening,you guys walk in to book the treatment but was not able to do it? me: ER???*muke shocked* my fren:*looking from the lift reflection* WHAT?? muke kami di sane agaknye begitu unique dan popular sampai semua kerabat resort tahu agaknye?memang kami agak popular di sana.sampai performers busking pon nak dtg depan muke table kite menyanyi lagu sambil kami berdua tengah 'NGAP'.LOL.*im touched you,feeling mak datin.* last weekend of school break,we did this!

as a result of that i had several bruises.the bruises case saket rabak nye.during the play,we had to compete with several teams, we did managed to defeat the first team.the second one,annoying,there was this guy who aim me i guess,then he managed to like attacked me directly next to me la.but at the same time when i turned,shocked to see him there,i began shooting him too.then the referee told that both of us was OUT of the game.*cos we are gone?*but this guy seems to be in a SAWAN mode or what keeps on shooting me. SIAO EH MAMAT.but then again he was nice enough to ask me; ''sory,you ok?'' HAHA. so kelakar la kau mat.lucky im wearing the headgear cos im like making face behind the mask :p i was shot in the eye too .thanks to the headgear im still visible.

im currently obsessed with whitening products.all of it.all of them.cos after the paintball session,i realised i become one tone darker.mom says im black now.OMG..black??okla i think tan,but she dun seems to have betta word in mind so she says black.but nani says its fine,cos usually people mistook me for a china girl.so atleast now..hmm..okla so like the day after i went shopping for like all the whitening masks,lotion and stuff.OMG.the cashier at the shop didnt welcome me at first cos she thought i'm not a potential buyer.but when it seems like im taking all the whitening stuff off the rack,the attention was given to me naturally.tsk.what kinda service was that? these are some additional items bought. nivea stuff too.vaseline too.and new stuff i bought, a wash-off mask from sasa.plus whitening baby's mask!i was super stressed and nani like assure and recommended me...SYAHIRAH tagline; suci dan segar!HAHA.its halal too!!for once,im using beauty product which is halal certified!chop chop lagi.baikkk!its actually good as after using it,i read up about it,it uses all the plants and goat's milk!its good!lotsa vitamin extracts.do try guys!

Part II

the trip was adventurous overall.we are able to view the interesting landscape plus the environment and atmosphere; very calming and soothing especially when we had to climb up the long steps to the Japanese Garden,though the weather was bright sunny,it was very cooling and chilling as it was way up the hill. the place that we visited is situated way up the hill,Colmar Tropicale (well some of you might have heard of the place while others still wondering whether this place is somewhere farrrr,NO its not from Singapore cos its in Malaysia truly Asia.its an hr plus drive from KL. so yeap. we took bus from Singapore,not flight duh,its too near to take that anyway.the best part we took the bus to and fro Singapore with this particular couple.so thus we had no trouble recognizing the bus as we just had to tail them from the back (stalker heh) the highlight of the trip was at The Chateau.we initially wanted to do the spa,but,we did not prepare for the budget earlier thus,its out of the way,so we just had hair treatment,JOJOBA hair treatment to be specific. the treatment did our hair justice,did justice to my hair specifically.and the place,OMG,so posh looking i swear,the service was EXCELLENT.and it was awesomely cheap (affordable la i shud say).i mean in my homeland here,i couldnt get that kinda price plus awesomely good service together.well,the place was in the area where no cameras are allowed (told you its so posh looking that even a picture wasnt allowed in there).the first day we are there,we wanted to just walk in and do treatment but was stop by the guard as he though we wanted to sightseeing to take photos(actually duh,we wanted to do both) the interior looks so fine and sleek looking;the tiles and marbles seems to be polished every few seconds to ward of the dust.i give it a 10/10 for that place. and this is the result after the treatment... oh and ya I went for foot reflexology and my fren went for the head and shoulder massage.it was awesome too!!love it la! the rest are pictures taken at the animal park. what a place to take photo... okay actually there's alot of food photos la but ofcos cant upload all of it right?so this short trip have somehow made my holiday this June!!yeah!hope to look forward for more upcoming trips!i hope the GIRLS able to join! till i blabber again, fizah ^ ^

Part I

yadayadayada

ola folks.i was just contemplating on whether to style this bushes differently.for this month my new resolution is just gonna be LESS of 'swiping' of cards.that means people,.. i will try my very best at all cost to stop spending unnecessarily.thank god all the major things i've done.only waiting patiently...todududu..for phone bill.how else gonna plan my finance.it will just crack hairline to my brain as to whats gonna happen if theseee goes on.. anyway,i've been to a wedding yesterday.the deco was wow la.but when its under the block,i dunno why ppl had to do it extravagantly.ok i get it,its a wedding,don't get me wrong,i'm a malay too.in denial one.HAHA.okla,proud to be one de.its just my personal opinion,on why sepnding the amount?okla its your special day.FINE.maybe its just bcos im not even at that wedding2 stage and don't have a companion for life now(awWWWw..sounds sad heh)*giggling right now* but even if i do one day,i dunno.its just too much for an under the block thing.usually i will only look forward to the food.but now,i don't even look forward to it?don't get me wrong again,the food was good yesterday,finger-licking to most.its just me feeling like too much of that draggy oily fattening stuff down my throat.again don't get me wrong,i'm not acceptable size to begin with,not even in the dieting stage or not even acting to eat healthily,maybe oh well,its just...well too much of the 'overwhelming' colour 'blinded' my tastebud. anyway back to the wedding thingy.not saying yesterday's wedding event or whoever's wedding event.cos i believe all of them who did wedding will be really happy by the end of the day no matter how much they spent.cos,thats what they wanted isn't it?so yeah.in general,my personal opinion again,i would rather spend that amount on my degree and probably,a master.i mean,yarr,atleast you get a better qualification for better pay.HAHA.i mean seriously bro,thats alot of freaking dollars people spent wedding; on food,deco,dresses,photos,gifts,hmm and the list goes on..but oh well,by the end of the day as long as they are happy...who are we to judge right.. some of my friends,no,a number of my friends(means more than 10 less than 20)are engaged,planing to get married,or whatever,anyways, some of them will sometimes whatsapp me and we will kinda have group chat,and sometimes they will bring this kinda topic that getting married is not easy.i will always tell them things like.."tak payah kawin bawah blok(lagi mahal),kawin dekat masjid je sudah!(lagi murah)JIMAT."*sounds kampong*i mean really girl,if i were to get married la one day,entah bile la tu kan,but if la kan,i wud just buat dekat masjid.lagi baik!pastu smue bawak bekal sendiri k.save duit.LOL kidding,k ah order satu bun for each je k.air pat water cooler ade,minom je la.practical right?tok kadi dah SAH je kite dua teros lari k,HOORAY! I THINK,ours wud the talk of the town,not becos of the grandness,but becos too STINGE.HAHA.OKAYLA PLAN B,aku akan kahwin di hotel(ni case kalo laki aku Datok*datuk title kaye k bukan datuk title case cucu satu lori* )and gonna wear the wow dresses and everything will be so WOW,cos laki aku DATOK babe jgn lupe).tu kalo DATOK ah,kalo tak,TOO BAD STICK TO PLAN A. well,come to think of it,in islam,our religion,it is not difficult.well,i think we just need to have like 'duit for mas kawin' or what,(thats what i heard during my madrasah last time)part ni je kite dengar dulu.kau tengok punya la cheeky.then maybe exchange a ring kape?which tu pon i dun think necessary?i dunno la,then got saksi,got the father of the bride give consent,got kadi kape...OK GO!NIKAH!DONE! so the thing that makes people think its difficult to get married is the additional additional stuff.like EXTRA ordinary deco,extra delicious food,EXTRA amount of dowry.yadayadayada.haiz pity the guys now have to work freaking hard to get the girl.HAHA. i get it ll of us wants tp look good on the big day,but its more annoying when you spent alot of money but your dresses turns out to be,..ok je la,...normal look*muke mak minah toncet*lebih baik aku jahit sendiri kan??HAHA,MUNGKIN LAGI CREATIVE. okayla,there's mroe weddings to come.im looking forward to the FULLERTON wedding though*if i'm invited la*kesian dia kesian dia...*singing*HAHA.I love to do wedding(part-time maybe) but i would love to handle kids for my daily work.HOW??can anyone like tell me i can do that?!so that i can earn double of what i earn now so that i can like LIFET MY DREAM OF FURTHERING MY STUDY!!!is not that i am ungrateful of what i've got now,its just,..oh well,..i wud love to have abit more so that yarrr i can achieve my goal faster.. K BYE

Mom

as we are celebrating mother's day soon, its kinda sad to hear stories which tainted the title of Mothers.Mothers are figures to be respected,love(given/received), responsibilities (mother to child vice versa).to me,my mum,parents took care of me well enough,and i just think that they deserve double the care when the are old from us,and thus hopefully i'm able to provide that,insyallah.however,no matter what they did to us,treated us,we should love and care for them as they bring us to the world.but at times there's ugly side of me pondering to this question. cos,as humans,we all do know that all mother figurines aren't that perfect either.read/heard/saw videos on how 'animal' the mom can be to her own child.how could she?i'm nobody to judge others wrongdoings or whats not.but,as a human being,we need all need to be treated as one right? firstly,am going talk about the mother abusing the child.let's just put it in general context(not zooming into the family backgrounds or the mother's status).if you think its a mistake for you to have a child,why bear one?have you ever ponder if its a mistake,its definitely a mistake of your own choice.you are given choice to choose,if you don't think you are ready for that battleship to be called a mother,you should have avoided at all cause not to be one, right?if you can't stop yourself from making that mistake, and the best solutions before you lose your control abusing the child,making it as a punching bag,you can always get helpline;worst come to worst,avoid the kids by sending them off to people who might appreciate them more. however,its sad to hear the child comes from a broken family;divorce,divorce is a word which i don't pay much attention to. however,if the word neglected aroused,i think,i will begin to judge them without the intention;anyone sane would.why 'build' that sandcastle just for the intention to destroy after that?you are just 'investing' on something good one day and after sometime,you think that investment don't bring you anywhere,you just simply withdraw from it.yes having a child is not easy,mentally emotionally,financially.but if we start the 'investment' feeling motivated why not hold on to your 'share' by trying harder to make it work?where is that motivation drive of yours? no matter how problematic the child is,how he/she look like,behave like,how they are;they are still your own kind.your generation.the seed that you planted,bear,introduce to the world.its YOU who did all that,so how can you say its a burden?its a God's gift.God trusted you to take care of that,but you did not fulfill that trust.why created that bond in the first place? so hence if one fine day,these children refuse to take of you when you need them most,don't you ever dare to speak a word of justice and rights.do you think they don't deserve one from you,too? that child is the product of your love.so you think without love to the other party one day,you can just 'dispose' your product/s somewhere in the bin?how could you?that love for the child and also responsibility to bring him/her up will still continue.it won't end there definitely.the journey has to continue. i would like to salute all the single mothers,mothers who are there for the children,taking care of them without thinking that's a burden in their life,mothers who wanted child and appreciate them when they received them,mothers to be(when they pray so hard to get one),mothers who LOVES their children unconditionally, even to children who think that you mother is not part of the category of A-list mothers,well give it a thought,have your mothers ever give up on you?put you away?desert you away from herself;avoiding you?if they are still there for you,atleast if they still let you allow to stay with them and still wanting to know your well-being or care about whether you are still alive;they still fall under the category of 'dear mom'.they do. & finally,i think,i have the BEST mom in the world.to me.to my family.i love you mom.love you alot.alot.alot.and i'll not betray the trust for you to let me live in this world with your guidance.