the not so pleasing day!

okay today im supposed to wakeup abit slightly later than the normal days.ohwell, my niece is here for the weekend,so i bet to have a peace of beauty sleep.my lappy is siao2 again.like on off kinda thing,look let me just blog first aite,then u can go and mati or what.REALLY I THOT OF PUTTING SOME PHOTOS FOR THIS POST,but i am too pissed and angry la gurrrrrl to even do it.

look, ytd i have kinda family chalet going on,my dad's side duh.cos my mum's side is more chillax lepak one corner tkde nak chalet2 ni semua.AND I DID NOT GO.i went to mit my ex-pri school classmate instead,i rather do catchup with her than to mit the makcikS and pakcikS.

okay have i told u?the job that i have now,the TEMPORARY job that i have now is GIVEN by my aunt.my dad's side.OKAY.u noe what  i hate about recommendations and stuff???when they ask for some return after THAT.i seriously do NOT AGREE WIF THIS KINDA POLICY.SERIOUSLY.they expect something in return after they have given 'something'.okay my aunt is a kindergaten tch.i swear from last time i dun realli like her attitude.act diva always.but i kinda tak ckp bnyk la,i mean i appreciate what she have given me,the job offer,but look the credit dun really go to her okay,IF THE PRINCIPAL DUN LIKE ME OR FIND ME NOT SUITABLE OR NOT QUALIFIED IM SURE SHE DUN TAKE ME OSO RIGHT??????

SO its actually back to my qualification la kan.not like becos of her i get the JOB??????becos sory la kan,im not trying to be proud or step mane ah but SERIOUSLY I CAN GET THE JOB W/O ANYONE'S HELP.pls la ive been working part time for so freaking long ah.alot of it.wanna talk about working experience wrong person to talk about to ah seriously.though its part time job,but i have been WORKING LITERALLY for about 3-4 years already.i mean just look at my age.21 only kay so to have been working part time plus schooling is quite miracle right?so if u wanna talk about me not getting extra income or want to help me get EXTRA INCOME IM SORY LA KAN.its easy for me to get myself.even if im desperado to get a job,i have alot friends who are willing to help me w/o any obligations i return.they will hep me sincerely.unlike families.at times i just kinda hate family ties.i mean like uncles and aunties.THAT KIND. i am being brought up in a family,MY OWN FAMILY CONSIST OF DAD,MUM,BRO,SIS AND ME; in a situation where u spent what u earn,when u get the job its just becos u are qualified to not becos of ppl's help.independent and self strive.and i am proud of that.we dun brag even if we earn more.we DUN TAKE CREDITS FOR SOMEONE'S SUCCESS.my parents are humble ppl.so yeah.

the story begins like this.*story telling mode* i have just finish my school,waiting for my graduation.i am holding a part time job of retail baby's wear.that means,i still have income to start off with.one fine day my cuz,kakak sdare put her child here,her child is the same age as my niece.so yeah.i can 'click' wif children.very well indeed.so i took care of her awhile.so my aunt(the child's granny) was like ''senang eh,mcm gini boleh jage budak''okay then dats where the drama begins.i was like okay la kan.thot its over.the next very day, she called me to offer me a job,saying that the kindergaten needs a tch,one thing bad abt me,is i can't say NO to job offer as long as its HALAL duh.she said she refused to give my another cuz which is abt the same age as me cos of her working ethic.so hence she gave to me.okay fine i took it,i even ask my friend along to join later.which i indirectly 'recommended' it to my friend.

then i just got my pay recently,which is pathetically lil' cos the cut off date was last mth's so the payment was up to 31st of last mth.and furthermore my rate is hourly base so yeah.aku bersyukur la alhamdulilah but if to put it in a betta way i can earn more working my own part time job as more working hours and well atleast i dun have to perah my energy and minyak to scold the kids right?? so well, my makcik call me the night i received my pay.i can sense something's up the sleeve readi,she keep asking me to chk dah masok blm gaji ask me to chk the amount la ape la.EH PLS LA THIS IS NOT MY FIRST TIME GETTING pay.she thot im the reali first time dapat gaji or what.den i just tak bnyk ckp go wif the flow,ye kan je la....last part of the convo goes something like this,''then bile nak blanje???''i was like,EXPECTED.

EH PLS LA MAK AKU PON AKU TAK KASI YET.AND SHE NEVE EVEN ASK FOR ANYTHING.U???GOT THE CHEEK TO ASK THAT.SERIOUSLY.i was like.HAHA*SARCASTIC LAUGHTER TO HER*then she tole me about her coming bdae on the wikend.which was this wikend,today.and she told that she wanted to have it celebrated at my other aunt's chalet.so i was like ''ah bagus la''..*sounds so tkde perasaan*den she gave up i think cos i kinda not getting her hint,she invite me to come along....*NAK PRESENT LA TU*TSK.

and ytd i knew so much this would come.talk about me indirectly.my mum,dad and sis went and said THEY,MY AUNTS MOSTLYduh prompan slalu bnyk mulot.said or support that I SHOULD GAVE MY AUNT A LIL GIFT SINCE SHE WAS THE ONE WHO GAVE ME THIS JOB???

when i heard that last night after my sis told me,ape lagi,darah UP AH AKU.EH SUKE HATI AKU LA NAK KASI KAPE???AKU PUNYE DUIT.AND PLS LA,IM NOT KEDEKUT OR WHAT,THIS PAY IS ONLY LAST MTH'S PAY WHICH IS LIL' AND MEANT FOR MYSELF,EVEN MY PARENTS NEVE ASK FOR ANYTHING,WHO ARE YOU TO ASK FROM ME?AND IM NOT THE PERSON WHO TK KENANG JASA OR WHAT LA KAN,I APPRECIATE HER LIL' TK PERLU HELP BUT I NEVE ASK HER FOR HELP TO FIND ME A JOB IN THE FIRST PLACE.TO BEGAN WIF I HAVE MY OWN PART TIME JOB WHICH I GOT IT MYSELF.LOOK FOR IT MYSELF.SO PLS LA KAN U ARE THE ONE WHO OFFER ME.THAT'S ALL.AND I WILL GIVE IT VOLUNTARILY IF I WANT TO.U DUN HAVE TO 'ASK' FOR IT.IT WILL MAKE U LOOK INSINCERE.PERIOD.
 if like that, i can also say that i recommend my friend and can ask her for blanje or what???pls la im not that type of person.i mean my friend got it cos of her own credit. i only help to show the way, she get the thing herself right?period.

and i have sent out a resume.i remember my brother told me to put some name which he knew of in the company that i want to work at.NOW, that i learn my lesson.i shall not and did not do so.when the question prompt any reference or recommendation or any person you know in the company?i state: NIL.*though my bro noe someone in there*COS, I DUN WANT TO OWE ANYTHING TO ANYONE.

EEEEEE GERAM PE.NIWAES IM LEAVING THIS JOB AFTER THE FIRST SEMESTER.I GOT TO HAVE A GREAT RESUME TO GET A GREAT JOB AND MAKE HER AND THEM OPEN THEIR EYES AND LOOK AT ME DIFFERENTLY LA KAN!

BIAR DORG BUKAK TU MATE DAN PANDANG SAPE TU FIZAH!TSK.

drained out!!!

i am sooooooooooooooo tired to the extend that i barely open my eyes nowadaes in the morning.so u can imagine my small cina eyes now added wif sleepiness abis ah....just enuff to see the road infront of me.now my schedule of life is so crap.mon-fri,an EDUCATOR to make it soud nicer to small lil kids.if you get what i mean.38 of these lil' monsters.all i can say by the end of the day...... IS.............???sat or sun now is spent dealing wif more kids,either work as retail for babies/children wear OR dealing wif damn hyperactive lil' nephew & niece at home.soooo u can say...basically......my mon-sun OR SADLY TO SAY EVERYDAY IS SPENT WIF KIDS, KIDS & MORE KIDS!!!!!!kay i love kids.they are adorable naive innocent creatures.BUT I ONLY LOVE TO PLAY AND ENTERTAIN THEM but not.....EDUCATING OR HAVE TO TOLERATE THEIR NONSENSE!!!! i swear after this i think i my line of study is still betta!talking to plants is much more way bETTA.well atleast, they DUN ANSWER BACK.oh well just after you leave or lost something then u regret or felt that you shud treasure it.now i understand wat this phrase meant.really. ohwell applying for work is hard and tough nowadaes,i am actuali quite and kinda scared not getting the ideal job upon graduation.to start of with,i actually do not really know what to do in life.really.it freaks me out thinking abt it.

now,my parents kinda look scold me for taking to much part time jobs now.that i really do not even have time for myself and that they really see changed in my attitude of life.cos last time,ohwell atleast i use to 30%part time work,multi task wif 10% skool multitask wif 60% lepaking life.but NOW,tsk.dun talk abt it.

i thought i know what i wanna do in life.but then again, im fickle minded.im talking about a lifetime career.so i really need to choose wisely as this is for a long run,not like my part time jobs which i have been in alot.and i kinda wanted to agree to my dad's proposal.chey proposal.of continuing my studies to 'U'...but i rejected his proposal cos i dun want him to pay for it.i just find it that i am like a burden to him.his supposed to be enjoying his life now rite?bro and sis have family, support themselves readi only me,tk habis2 pakai his money.tsk.malu tau i...-____- and sis is always like showing symptoms of envy of me at times..this is tht feeling which makes me felt useless instead of being proud that dad loves me slightly better compared to her..HEHE.

okay look, my dad is so talkative nowadaes.right at this moment im typing, i can hear him babbling.dunno babble what.i look at him but his words just dun hit my brain la.sorry kay.pls excuse me.i think mum have change to be dad and vice versa,cos mum is quiter nowadaes.

aniwaes.
-I AM TIRED OF THE KIDS
-I AM TIRED OF DEALING WIF THE CUSTOMERS
-I AM TIRED OF PEOPLE'S COMPLAIN.SORRY IM NOT UR PERSONAL ADVISOR ANYMORE
-I AM TIRED OF my &PPL'S ATTITUDE
-I AM TIRED OF PPL'S NOT NECESSARY COMMENT ABT ME,WELL LOOK PPL,JUST MIND UR OWN BUSINESS AITE??!!
-I AM TIRED OF HAVING TO TOLERATE PPL'S CRAP
-I AM TIRED OF GIVING FACE AND CHANCE TO PEOPLE
-I AM TIRED OF GIVING WAY JUST TO PLS PPL'S LIFE

PERIOD!

and tmr moning as early as the ayam KOKOK, i have to get readi to jb.the so tk perlu trip.if i never go,they would say i anti from their cluster.OHWELL,tkde standard la i nak bermingle ngan u all*flicks hair*HAHA.prangai diva jap.actually, no la,i just dunno them that well yet.and that woman is going and i dislike looking at me.okay la.wtv.pray me well.ALL I KNOW IS BY THE END OF THE THE,MY SHOPPING BAG WILL BE FULL OF FOOD ONLY.WHAT ELSE IN JB?i can't be so kental like them want to go SHOPPING FOR CLOTHES THERE RITE?tsk.sorry la not my taste.*chk2 i buy eh*HAHA.OK AT MOST ONE THING I WILL BUY,HEHE.GIRL'S STUFF.BYE.



xoxo
fizafernandez