F1 MOOD

let's update my blog now.since i have quite major stories to post last wikend,didn't have d opporunity to cos was damn bz...mcm paham la.niwaes let's begin with d...friday,met sum frens.
they wanted go bugis.dunno for what reasons.tag along cos i was feeling down d whole wik you noe..so yar.was late(as usual)trying to purchase standard tix cos didn't have ezlink?ok it was fucking long queue.just go wif d flow.when its my turn,put in d 2$ note and drop sum coins into it,but d fucking machine seems not accepting my money.sumpah sial.as if my cash was fake ones.tried several tymes,you noe me la,case tknk malu nye.4-5x.still cannot.and i noe for sure d ppl behind me was not patient enuff.eh sial,not my fault what,its d bloody machine la. okay den i give up,i think after d 5th try,or no,,6th or 7th try.ok wtv.walked off confidently,blushing as usual,when i turned passed by tis boy/man, not reali a matrep,but malay la kn.den he was containing he's laughter luking at me.ape lagy aku naik tandok ah.mumbles to myself,"eh suar nk ketawe tkmo step maintain ah,ko ketawe sumpah aku sepak kay tk bedek" ppl think i psychotic talking to myself plus muke marah giler jalan.walked aimlessly for 5 mins,like an idiot,forgetting my real intention to take train.den walk to d taxi stand, hailed for cab.muke sumpah org kaye.chop duit.texted my frens ask em wait at d taxi stand instead of cntrl stn.den one of em' was like...'you can purchase d tix at d counter itself what?'i dunno dat but sum of my frens say cannot?ok wtv im in d cab oreadi.dun bother to make myself more pissed.but ltr they reminded me its F1 dae,which means,cab will be plus plus amount??!damn.forget that.sial F1.OKAY for d fact dat i have to pay more.d trip to bugis from my hse is usuali...8$ at most?but dat dae was fucking$14.50?wah damn expensive.den went to serangoon,tekka to eat indian food.at KOMALAS.luk at all d indian bazaar.well,deepavali coming soon.hmm den at nite,went karaoke at CASH STUDIO.aku mmg carefree life.relieved stress abis.

   

sat,went to one of my cuz place for open house,raye plus they just shift house so make sum kenduri.was fun get to mit them up,snap sum pixs,d pixs r all wif them btw,as i still haven reconcile wif dat person dat dae.so yar.dat person muke perasaan mau bebual ngan aku yer.case sum of my aunts and uncles crack jokes, and i could see usuali dia will ketawe plus share comments wif me.but dat dae,dia was like...''omg,i wanna talk to yoouuu pls''*muke nk share gossip tapi tk bleh*okay wtv,eat eat eat like pig den went off from dat place headed to my aunt,mum side place.again took cab.cos it seems my biological brother,suppossedly to be our chauffer for d dae,didn't turn up.betol punye suar.he can live wif his deary wife pat dalam cave okay.play fb games.n d kiddo sumpah can b d next generations of hermits.*case ignorant*

d cab dat we took,sumpah he thinks dat he is,..LEWIS HAMILTON,OR JENSON BUTTON,OR ALONNSOO*TELOR APEK*he drove damn fast.SUPER FAST.EXTREMELY FAST.LIKE GONNA CRASH ON EVERYTHING.once he just curse d ppl who wanted to cross d ZEBRA CROSSING AND JUST went off.sial nyer apek.sumpah siao.den he almost crash into a delivery guy,pizza hut yar.den he was cursing"CELAKA PUNYA OLANG".and i'm sitting in front, cos i dun want to sit next to d person.i swear my heart was at d throat.in my mind i was,,i still want to get married have family,enjoy life.HAHA.giler.but yar,i dun wanna die early.den i was being sarcastic"EH DIA NI MCM F1 RACER LA,HAMILTON KE,BUTTONE KE,"my dad was laughing his ass off.instaed of taking it as a sarcarsm,tis apek,take it as motivation.SIAL.he was even faster and smiling??when i turn to him.MATE DAH SEPET.okay mine not dat yar.den dere was few times he yawn SUPER LOUDLY,rubbing his eyes.Okay if you are tired,go back sleep okay setan,dun risk ourlife!alhamdulillah we managed to reach d destination,unhurt.

ytd,sun was one of d most tiring dae,woken up by dad to jog wif him to east coast.okay after d run,he advised me.yar was surprised to be advised by him,well he usuali talk craps,like a 6 yr old kiddo.sumpah.but ytd,he advised me to talk to dat person and stuff ,as usual,went all typical parents talk"kalau abah dah tkde,bla bla bla."expected he would give me a lecture when he wants us to sit by d beach*emo la tu*advising session took place for abt 30mins yar...initially i was listening to d ipod, he ask me took it off when we sat at d bench,i was like..OKAY...took off only one side of d earpiece.stop d music.listen to him.containing my tears,
couldn't take it nimore,on d music,naseb sbelah earpiece still dere.lagu pulak jiwang.com.LOVE SToRY ONE OF MY FAV.SONG NOW.okay its like as if my dad dun let me marry my ROMEO.WTV.but lucky i listen to song on d other side.if not,i'm able to listen FULLY TO MY DAD'S LECTURE I SWEAR ITS GONNA BE BANJIR AT EAST COAST wif my tears yar...air pasang.HAHA.passer by,luking at me so emo by d beach,crying??!plus sumpah at one point i feel like running away from my dad.STOP MAKING ME CRY FURTHER!sibok je org2 tgk like aku ni tgh film drama ke.MENANTI KEKASIH?alah sedihnye title.went back home and..yar had to take my dad's advise,,,so reconcile wif dat person..A.K.A...MY SIS LA.JENG JENG JENG.HAPPY ENDING,BUT not just yet?me had to apologise her husband A.K.A MY BRO IN LAW for dunno what reason?cos i fought wif my sis not my B.I.L?wtv it is they are married so have to.but he is a nice person.sumpah aku respect dia more den BIOLOGICAL BRO AKU SKRG.OKAY BYE.dats all folks.update soon..

signoff
fiezaward

last straw

well,my raye mood didn't turn out well...i ruin d whole raye mood.thnx to dat person.i reali had to give up n blew my top.lost my temper for once.hate dat feeling.like as if i was possessed.what to do,its done.its over.i'm trying to put all this behind me.hope so.im trying to avoid everyone in d family.especially dat person.i swear i hate her. maybe im still in d anger mood.but whatever it is.its doneded.full stop

well, whatever it is, my first day raye already like...bla bla bla.but had quite abit fun.miss d outing wif my cuzzy as they left my family for jalan raye as we are late.reali late.for our grandma house n stuff.cos dat person husband's grandma passed away.my parents have to show respect and visited d funeral b4 going for jalan raye.i didn't see d funeral.wasn't in proper attire,so had to sit in d car for about half n hr.well,below are my pixs for first dae raye had wif dad n mum.had sum snaps wif sum of my cuz whom manage to mit but dun wanna put up cos i luk terrible in it.i think tis yr, most of my pixs are syok sendiri case.cos didn't get to mit all my cuzzins.sadded.n pixs wif my mum,my stupid hand accidentally deleted it.thnx.

my first dae outfit

I.LOVE.D.KAIN.(BOTTOM)HEHE.NICE DESIGN.*self praised*WOHOO.n i had only tis pix of my cuzzins..d rest all,missed them.too bad.

n here's Mr.Hanafi

bored in d car,snap sum pixs.im a fan of this boy.hehe

second day of raye had lotsa cuz came in d morning to my house for raye.but haven bath so didn't snap any photo.busok.after they left,den we went out visiting d hse until late nite...and dat nite,dat was when everything went OFF.TOTALLY OFF.dat person just have to provoke me.dat was my final straw.D BOMB EXPLODE.VOLCANO ERUPT.name it everything one can think of.dats when my misery start.
moments of syok sendiri on 2nd dae

  

no pixs wif cuzzy,had to post tis man every now and den yar ppl,managed to snap wif my dearest mum...                         

2nd dae, i have d mood to done up my face. d first dae was plain jane.

third dae of raye,everyone starts werk as usual,n dat morning wif my swollen eyes,already luk like chingchong now i can't even see la,wrote a 3 pages letter,expressing my thoughts to dat person n stuff. and afterwhich,shower,out wif d shittest clothes n luk,spent d rest of d dae hanging wif one of my besties,umairah.spill out all d misery,share d sorrows,as she too had family matters.one of d a major problem i guess.walk to east coast from my house,den d two of us sat by d beach,choking ourself wif BEN N JERRY.believe dats d best solution to ward off all d shit in us.thnx BEN N JERRY.btw,its CHOCOLATE.after which we headed to her cuz place where we chit chat n gossip again.but her cuz said im different.too quiet dat dae.well i noe usuali im not.what to do,been crying all nite after d FIGHT.met another sis lup at nite,iryani.at paris her hometown.again,told of my misery.since d two of 'em knew about my family stuff.luv 'em so much.thnx gurls.u guys are reali great listeners.dat nite,dat person husband tried to make us reconcile.im not being egoistic.usuali i apologise to her first,but this tyme,according to her husband,she wants to do it first.i refuse to go out of d room or even get up from d bed.cos i just can't do it.can't face her.not now.

today,sat at home rot,thinking what to do.i just dun wanna face dat person now.not now.reali.i just can't look at her face.so didn't join mum go raye visiting.dunno what to,mum told me get sum food for dad dwnstairs when he's back from werk,but didn't have d mood.so whipped up sumthing simple for him.i think he likes my cooking, although he didn't say its nice,he finishes two plates of it la.ok bye.dats all folks for now.i'm blank.ok bye.

fried rice;ingredients from d fridge,dump everything i see inside.haha.

Pastamaniac!

i had a pastamnia date wif nazeema ytd.*kami straight yar*.hehe.d food was nice of course!spicy chicken!okay next up, i'm sure gonna b a host of JALAN2 CARI MAKAN YE !

den lepak wif nazeema for while,went to her place..soo long neve go la.tasted d cookies she made,nice!mkn je eh! camwhore jap.but didn't got d pixs yet,its in her camera.hmm.. den called umairah to chill wif us since nazeema oso neve met up wif her so long? out of a sudden while walking towards umairah's place,nazeema's R6 called.hehe.her bf la.it was a sudden one.her bf case antyme boleh call nye and initiate a mit up.soo surprised dat her bf said he's at eunos station AT DAT POINTof tyme?alalalala.so nazeema had to abort her plan of lepaking wif us.den left me alone*sedih pa prangai loner* to continue d journey to mit dear umz n her sis...met d 2 gurls under their blk, den d 3 of us happily walked towards geylang bazaar to buy foodie.i tink tis yr i went bazaar lotsa tymes compared to previous years cos usuali i went once or twice at most even though stayed freaking near.well,i just couldn't stand d smell of d crowd?bau eww. plus all dat cooking...to me bazaar=foodie.hehe*gurl_gemok.com/fiezaward.*GRAB dendengs,..(d boys/guys were freaking gatal nk mampos case flirt 24/7.SEPAK MUKE DORG)while walking back tis umairah n sis seems to noe lotsa bazaar ppl claim to be their family?!hi bye hi bye here and dere.haha.okay smue case mamak blood la kn.niwaes,den saw...OMG.sumone i ADMIRE la.okay.dat was last tyme?cos now..he got a gf i guess so just dump dat shit feeling okay fieza??!!oOokayy..*tk sincere abis*tkla hansem sgt...but i dunno...he's charming?!*accordinG to umz words.hehe.den headed towards my blk; carpark as usual.where we hang out,share all d stories as we neve mit for quite sum tyme...so babble thru d whole nite...had so much fun lepak,sharing maring stories smpi terbaring-baring la kn.

umairah's sis,HAZIRAH potential parkinson patient.tgk ni pix!blurred la

                                                                       me and car?!ehem.

today,sumpah aku budak baik seketika ye.spring cleaning case THOrOUGH NYE!!d whole of today neve go out.proud of myself.yeah!haha.erm..i hope so.shall ward off all d intention...few more hours b4 today ends...well, tmr is d end of Ramadhan..last dae of fasting,..can't wait to  mit d gurls at nite...get all d foodie again,hang out AT my carpark to.....HEHE.a big party on RAYA eve.okay sungguh.lame. but wateva,we wanna play firecrackers?*prangai budak2* and make a...VIDEO RAYA!!wait for d posting at youtube yar ppl!!*muke excited plus tktau malu*

paiseygiler.com/fiezaward

since im soo freaking embarassed today,i shall post tis ALL IN RED.well, angry at d same time pissssed off.wtv u can associate d colour RED wif.first, i didn't woke up for sahur tis moning,okay it wasn't a big deal cos i neve reali wake up for it,but d big deal was i neve had enuff liquid d previous nite so was freaking thirsty like sumone in SAHARA DESERT i guess?woke up around 1145,saw msg by dat ZARA JR.maybe now i shud kol u dat bro...den was bugged by mum to follow her buy drinks?i meant d raya drinks,d ones in cartons;F&N n stuff?oh well,dragged myself to shower...been cursing my biological bro in d toilet though.i have to say dat biological cos scared others might think its em.*prangai bnyk bro* been doing all tis odd jobs,GUYS job ever since he left d house for someone not worth it.

grab sum shit shirt which sumhow reflects what i'm thinking of my biological bro.

sempat camwhore jap.HAHA

wanted to get those nearby my place,ntuc for instance,however my dear mum*bulan ramadhan bersabar bnyk2* insist on getting d ones at sheng siong,so far..?(prangai asfarella) cos it can have mixed types.grab d drinks headed back home.*prangai boboy*otw home,SEEMS LOTSA OBSTACLES YAR.stupid bazaar is getting on my nerves la!i.hate.geylang.sumpah.seems no other way to get back home, have to pass em.so IT WAS TOTAL EMBARASSEMENT cos aku sumpah kelihatan like maid pushing d trolley full of bottle drinks.n they were like happily luking at me sadistically as i was sweating like shit pushing it ups n downs d stupid wooden planks of bazaar.n dere's tis one point when i was going down d slope,d stupid trolley stuck to d wooden plank and sumpah my reaction was SUPER FUNNY i guess;I was like FUCK *case pekat punye* den d guys at d bazaar stalls were all like"kesiannye dia,,blabla"didn't reali hear d overall cos was bz concentrating to get d trolley off d shit.*prangai makcik*and i.didn't.wanna.turn.paisey giler.my mum was helping? me.but it didn't do a great help cos d trolley seems bigger than her for sure.lucky managed to get it off after about?3minutes.*case tarek sepenuh hati,jantan pe*

den walking towards d traffic light,fucking ching chong dah dorg tk puase,up kn darah aku je.they were like talking and pointing d wherebouts*prangai tourists*n speaking in their deep accent,plus blocking my way la!i was like,excuse me,exuSE ME,EXCUSE ME!!*CIK BEDAH JAP*i dun understand as they still continue their fu**ing conversation la!EH BELAH LA SIAL*KN DA TER'MINAH' JAP*phew.lucky my mum was like 100m behind me.neve heard wat i've said.hehe.

my freaking biological bro sumpah prangai pemalas nowadaes!i mean he could have just offer my mum to buy d drinks since he got a CAR rite??sepak muke.lalalala.THNX AH BRO.SUMPAH TK BEDEK.

okay,nvm,came back,clean my room windows,hang d curtains.i know ppl would be like,IS SHE A MAID?!NO.I.AM.NOT!I.AM.A.FULL-TIME.STUDENT.well,its okay once in a while raye have to do tis*smangat nk raye* and since my mum's not at a gud of health so ya.and evening i helped her whipped up dinner(break fast).wohoo.(pixs below).tmr plan, spring cleaning again and dumping some of my stuffs?!! and maybe i'm miting my so called bros after break fast...

BEEF STEAK N MAGGI GORENG.SEDAAP PEE

sunday maid day?!

didn't turn out well ytd,didn't get to mit my sis lup mar,whom supposedly mit up wif us...
text her at 1.20pm
me: babe,so how today??
mar didn't reply so...i called her about 2pm,trying to conferm whether she's miting me not??didn't ans d call,..so like..okay...??
2pm
mar:sory sis,i think i couldn't mit up wif u guys today cos last min. i have to help my mum clean d house..so sory 4 d short notice..
me:*muke tk penah marah wif besties*alaa.hmm.its okay i guess.well we can catch up wif each other soon i guess?or we mit at night if possible??
mar: okay best!hope to c u sooon!

met asfa arnd 5plus-6,well we both plan to mit at 430 initially,oh well,as usual were late.met at bugis stn den headed to shab's werk place as promised to mit her 4 while?it was a short mit up but our mouth were like pepotpepotpepot*soo aunties*.asfa wants her CHICKEN RICE as usual so couldn't break fast wif shab n syai cos they went BK...?

den we ate at a nearby mamak's stall near NAFA...NO CHICKEN RICE,so went along wif chicken chop,ice milo,cheese fries*prangai gemok*d waiter was well a blurr man/boy?hmm.nvm we still got our foodie la kn.upon finishing d foodie,den dere's tis gurl behind us approached our table...??we were like??ape seh ko nk minah?

okay she told asfa dat one of her frens,3 guys,wanted to get to noe  her...asfa luks so blurr as usual as she was chking d phone 4 movie time,luks up and..err.no attached.thnx.den aku bukan ape la kn.no offence to tis minah but since asfa said she's attached means like..NO?she keeps on..not even frens? asfa:*thinking* no thnx.well,not to be shallow,if you are attached,confirm frens also cannot la kn wif some random guys??unless if you noe d frens of his?suspected one of d 2 guys sitting facing asfa la kn.one of em wore GUCCI BELT?HAHA.i noe i'm very observant!opps.soreh.love at first sight??HEHE.well,my bro dun want,so too bad...kuang3...

no better plan so d two of us catch a movie after dat,...9.yes 9 is d title.its an exciting movie wif d gud sound effect and animation.I.LIKE!

end arnd 1115,sat at d mcdonald's nearby,got a hot fudge sundae and began recording our crap videos.stupid lappy couldn't upload it cos of different format stuff...so now i can only do video wif my camera.not hp camera.*pissed*

                                                                                 we saw tis cute snail while crossing d overhead bridge

walked to d busstop,had to send asfarella*prangai mak2*well,she start her work today...so must give her face since i'm in my holiday mood.cross over to take bus to dhobby mrt stn before transit for  no.7,reach dhobby at 1205,thinking dat dere might still be last bus??1215 still NO SIGN? walk to d board to chk d timing.oh well.damn.last bus:2400.mumbles to myself.i.think.i.miss.d.last.bus. screen thru d board hoping dat might as well take nr7?forgetting dat its a sun soooOO NO NR7? WELL i think i'm too patient??no.optimistic??or just plain STUBBORN??dat i still continue to wait for BUS?any.bus.home.text asfa telling how tragic it was.as usual dat gila gurl when all over blaming herself as if it was her fault d last bus left me.HAHA.sumpah giler.i'm used to not having any bus back home cos its tooo late night?*case tk penah balek siang*
1225,punch in my so called bro,WAN!he's d only saviour i guess for tis kinda situation.

conversation goes like tis...
toot.. toot..,toot.. toot..,WAN picks up,
wan: helo?
me: eh kau patne ah??*prangai minah jap*
wan: asl??mau lepak?
me: err,no,yes,no i mean im stranded here wif no bus,..so who noes if you could give a ride home?
wan: HAHAHA!*SADISTIC LAUGH,SUMPAH TK PERLU YER*
me: eh setan!cpt la,boleh amek aku tk?!
wan: okay wait.kau patne?
me: dhobby ghaut stn
wan: okay wait

puts down?!...

about...2 minutes ltr,
wan: oi,kau still pat situ?
me: abeh?!YOU ASK ME WAIT WAT?!*
wan: okay 10 mins be there.wait.d mrt stn rite?
me: yupp!*muke happy*

well, after which...about 1255...dere's a bike,a scrambler,stopping at d busstop.i luk up.was like?!okay tis bike luks so freaking familiar la kn.not WAN's.but......his a fren of wan's.well me noe him.just an aquaintance.didn't reall like him cos of some problem.*dun wish to elaborate* suspected sumthing amiss his dere instead of wan??punch in wan's no. again*muke stalker*

me:eh dok,WHERE YOU?
wan:eh lupe nk blang kau,zul amek kau.dia dah smpi?*innocent voice*
me: thot kau suppose take aku?
wan: dia nak dtg rumah aku,so otw,amek kau la.rumah kite dekat ape*again innocent voice*
me: ape seh kau?!
wan: naik je kay.bye..

sometimes, wan simply couldn't understand WHAT SARCASM N ANGRY TONE IS?!*susah kwn dgn org sebegini YER*

approached him..
zul: hi!
me: hi...*tk sincere*
zul: why stranded here?
me: *dats a stupid qns*err,NO BUS?
zul: oh haha.cute la
me:*k sumpah dere's nothing cute abt being stranded wif no bus at all*okay so can we go?*avoiding more qns.*
zul : bf tk amek?
me: *instant reply* NS!*OKAY WTH AM I THINKING.I.HAVE.NONE.SINGLE NOW.PROMOTE JAP*HAHA
eversince d start of of first mit up,he thot dat i'm attached?okay up to you whatever you wanna think.
zul: oh okay.*fake smile*you wanna join us lepak?me,WAN,d rest??*thinking dat i might attracted to d offer by raising his tone when WAN's name mentioned,since WAN is d closest to me*'brother' oi.
me: *instant reply again*no thnx.wanna go home.
well dats so not me la kn go back early and turn down a lepak offer.HAHA.but tis guy is dere.so DUN WANT.

half heartedly,got on d bike which is freaking high.well i'm short.*LSE*cursing and swearing wan in d head but oh well grateful. at least dun have to fork out $ for cab!*muke miskin pa*

lucky back home was a straight road.12 minute ltr reached.SAVED.alhamdulillah.i mean last time i was 'hantu' for riding.but now am scared after hearing lotsa stories accidents involving bikes..,so have to be extra careful*muke nk idop lame n celebrate RAYE*HEHE.

took off d helmet,jump off d bike like a kiddo,
me: ok bye.thnx!
zul: no problem.next time want ride just call...
me: *dere won't be next* er,HAHA.aku ape?tkde bus hehari pa??*sarcastic tone*btw,sory 4 d trouble.THNX!
zul : my pleasure.*manly tone pe*night!
me: ok night.

walked off,still in d mood of cursiNg WAN.thnx ah bro!