yadayadayada

ola folks.i was just contemplating on whether to style this bushes differently.for this month my new resolution is just gonna be LESS of 'swiping' of cards.that means people,.. i will try my very best at all cost to stop spending unnecessarily.thank god all the major things i've done.only waiting patiently...todududu..for phone bill.how else gonna plan my finance.it will just crack hairline to my brain as to whats gonna happen if theseee goes on.. anyway,i've been to a wedding yesterday.the deco was wow la.but when its under the block,i dunno why ppl had to do it extravagantly.ok i get it,its a wedding,don't get me wrong,i'm a malay too.in denial one.HAHA.okla,proud to be one de.its just my personal opinion,on why sepnding the amount?okla its your special day.FINE.maybe its just bcos im not even at that wedding2 stage and don't have a companion for life now(awWWWw..sounds sad heh)*giggling right now* but even if i do one day,i dunno.its just too much for an under the block thing.usually i will only look forward to the food.but now,i don't even look forward to it?don't get me wrong again,the food was good yesterday,finger-licking to most.its just me feeling like too much of that draggy oily fattening stuff down my throat.again don't get me wrong,i'm not acceptable size to begin with,not even in the dieting stage or not even acting to eat healthily,maybe oh well,its just...well too much of the 'overwhelming' colour 'blinded' my tastebud. anyway back to the wedding thingy.not saying yesterday's wedding event or whoever's wedding event.cos i believe all of them who did wedding will be really happy by the end of the day no matter how much they spent.cos,thats what they wanted isn't it?so yeah.in general,my personal opinion again,i would rather spend that amount on my degree and probably,a master.i mean,yarr,atleast you get a better qualification for better pay.HAHA.i mean seriously bro,thats alot of freaking dollars people spent wedding; on food,deco,dresses,photos,gifts,hmm and the list goes on..but oh well,by the end of the day as long as they are happy...who are we to judge right.. some of my friends,no,a number of my friends(means more than 10 less than 20)are engaged,planing to get married,or whatever,anyways, some of them will sometimes whatsapp me and we will kinda have group chat,and sometimes they will bring this kinda topic that getting married is not easy.i will always tell them things like.."tak payah kawin bawah blok(lagi mahal),kawin dekat masjid je sudah!(lagi murah)JIMAT."*sounds kampong*i mean really girl,if i were to get married la one day,entah bile la tu kan,but if la kan,i wud just buat dekat masjid.lagi baik!pastu smue bawak bekal sendiri k.save duit.LOL kidding,k ah order satu bun for each je k.air pat water cooler ade,minom je la.practical right?tok kadi dah SAH je kite dua teros lari k,HOORAY! I THINK,ours wud the talk of the town,not becos of the grandness,but becos too STINGE.HAHA.OKAYLA PLAN B,aku akan kahwin di hotel(ni case kalo laki aku Datok*datuk title kaye k bukan datuk title case cucu satu lori* )and gonna wear the wow dresses and everything will be so WOW,cos laki aku DATOK babe jgn lupe).tu kalo DATOK ah,kalo tak,TOO BAD STICK TO PLAN A. well,come to think of it,in islam,our religion,it is not difficult.well,i think we just need to have like 'duit for mas kawin' or what,(thats what i heard during my madrasah last time)part ni je kite dengar dulu.kau tengok punya la cheeky.then maybe exchange a ring kape?which tu pon i dun think necessary?i dunno la,then got saksi,got the father of the bride give consent,got kadi kape...OK GO!NIKAH!DONE! so the thing that makes people think its difficult to get married is the additional additional stuff.like EXTRA ordinary deco,extra delicious food,EXTRA amount of dowry.yadayadayada.haiz pity the guys now have to work freaking hard to get the girl.HAHA. i get it ll of us wants tp look good on the big day,but its more annoying when you spent alot of money but your dresses turns out to be,..ok je la,...normal look*muke mak minah toncet*lebih baik aku jahit sendiri kan??HAHA,MUNGKIN LAGI CREATIVE. okayla,there's mroe weddings to come.im looking forward to the FULLERTON wedding though*if i'm invited la*kesian dia kesian dia...*singing*HAHA.I love to do wedding(part-time maybe) but i would love to handle kids for my daily work.HOW??can anyone like tell me i can do that?!so that i can earn double of what i earn now so that i can like LIFET MY DREAM OF FURTHERING MY STUDY!!!is not that i am ungrateful of what i've got now,its just,..oh well,..i wud love to have abit more so that yarrr i can achieve my goal faster.. K BYE

Mom

as we are celebrating mother's day soon, its kinda sad to hear stories which tainted the title of Mothers.Mothers are figures to be respected,love(given/received), responsibilities (mother to child vice versa).to me,my mum,parents took care of me well enough,and i just think that they deserve double the care when the are old from us,and thus hopefully i'm able to provide that,insyallah.however,no matter what they did to us,treated us,we should love and care for them as they bring us to the world.but at times there's ugly side of me pondering to this question. cos,as humans,we all do know that all mother figurines aren't that perfect either.read/heard/saw videos on how 'animal' the mom can be to her own child.how could she?i'm nobody to judge others wrongdoings or whats not.but,as a human being,we need all need to be treated as one right? firstly,am going talk about the mother abusing the child.let's just put it in general context(not zooming into the family backgrounds or the mother's status).if you think its a mistake for you to have a child,why bear one?have you ever ponder if its a mistake,its definitely a mistake of your own choice.you are given choice to choose,if you don't think you are ready for that battleship to be called a mother,you should have avoided at all cause not to be one, right?if you can't stop yourself from making that mistake, and the best solutions before you lose your control abusing the child,making it as a punching bag,you can always get helpline;worst come to worst,avoid the kids by sending them off to people who might appreciate them more. however,its sad to hear the child comes from a broken family;divorce,divorce is a word which i don't pay much attention to. however,if the word neglected aroused,i think,i will begin to judge them without the intention;anyone sane would.why 'build' that sandcastle just for the intention to destroy after that?you are just 'investing' on something good one day and after sometime,you think that investment don't bring you anywhere,you just simply withdraw from it.yes having a child is not easy,mentally emotionally,financially.but if we start the 'investment' feeling motivated why not hold on to your 'share' by trying harder to make it work?where is that motivation drive of yours? no matter how problematic the child is,how he/she look like,behave like,how they are;they are still your own kind.your generation.the seed that you planted,bear,introduce to the world.its YOU who did all that,so how can you say its a burden?its a God's gift.God trusted you to take care of that,but you did not fulfill that trust.why created that bond in the first place? so hence if one fine day,these children refuse to take of you when you need them most,don't you ever dare to speak a word of justice and rights.do you think they don't deserve one from you,too? that child is the product of your love.so you think without love to the other party one day,you can just 'dispose' your product/s somewhere in the bin?how could you?that love for the child and also responsibility to bring him/her up will still continue.it won't end there definitely.the journey has to continue. i would like to salute all the single mothers,mothers who are there for the children,taking care of them without thinking that's a burden in their life,mothers who wanted child and appreciate them when they received them,mothers to be(when they pray so hard to get one),mothers who LOVES their children unconditionally, even to children who think that you mother is not part of the category of A-list mothers,well give it a thought,have your mothers ever give up on you?put you away?desert you away from herself;avoiding you?if they are still there for you,atleast if they still let you allow to stay with them and still wanting to know your well-being or care about whether you are still alive;they still fall under the category of 'dear mom'.they do. & finally,i think,i have the BEST mom in the world.to me.to my family.i love you mom.love you alot.alot.alot.and i'll not betray the trust for you to let me live in this world with your guidance.