next,two of my frens have asked me these question.DO I REALLY LIKE RAYA?to tell you seriously,i do not really enjoy it as much as i do during my younger days.not becos i get less money(in fact i get more red colour this year, dah besar kan)but its becos sometimes,i do feel like its just a procedure kinda of thing.i prefer ramadhan betta,fasting.do call me a freak,but i do like something different.
reasons for not realli liking Raya,firstly,you have to ask forgiveness,okay that is a good thing i know.but me being not so good at arranging my malay sentence,go all betarabuh trying to ask forgiveness from my parents and grandmas.i do ask from my sis, but not my brother and thus i kinda feel bad.
next,when people ask for forgiveness that means after that they won't do anything bad or talk bad about the other party right after that??its not for some people.they are what we call two faced people/split personality/tebiat creatures.one minute crying and stuff asking for forgiveness.next minute they one corNAR gossip about that person they just asked for forgiveness.i really DO NOT understand them.
next,every year,i have to go about the same routine.each year i will look like a criminal/suspect have to answer questions from the 'investigator' asking my brother's whereabouts.well those who know my family stuff they will understand.i dislike my dad's side to put it in a nice way.but I DO Love all my cuzzies from both side.they are nice living creatures.so far no issues wif them except for with the typical minah twins twat. i dislike some of my aunties and uncles from my dad's side.first,they being so bitchy and laser at times, always like to talk unnecessary stuff which somehow sometimes hurt people's feeling w/o realising.GREAT.one of them i know loves to judge people.i know you do even when you dun spit out.last year,this auntie 'observe' one of my cuz in sucha weird way.like becos she do not really have good education plus dress up not appropriately,not wearing hijab.this year,my abit of a minah cuz changed,transform to be betta,alhamdulilah.already wearing tudong,plus duh have to dressup appropriately,my auntie like kinda 'like'/ 'approve' her.and now she kinda 'observe' me next.like give this kinda weird look.okay thats becos my other cuzzins that are not wearing tudong all either older/younger than me.the ones about my age are all covered.period.so thats the reason i got those strange glances from her.
WE do not judge by one physical look right??its up to us to wear or not right?maybe im just not ready for it yet?cos its a freaking huge responsibility for me.a huge change i have to go thru if i want to wear it.the major one is i can't hang out late wif the matS motorS.its just not appropriate right?i dun wanna be 'minah tudong' okay.the title is given out to those wear tudong but neve hold the responsible well.again who are we to judge.
next,those org TPs (tak puase) seems to Raya more than us.LOL right.they act as if they do full month course of fasting.WOW.haha.again up to them la kan.but its just so contradicting.this story is about one of guy fren whom happen to like fast as and when he like but ytd when he texted me to wish raya,i thot he was busy working(dun expect him to celebrate raya) but he was like''EH mesti aku amek cuti,raya sak.mau jalan raya,makan2!'' kay bro,bawak betenang -_________-
next,people do make surprise visiting when you dont expect them.this was especially for my dad's side.they said wanted to visit my house ytd at about 12pm.about 12 means,,11,11 plus,12,12 plus right?not like...1040am????freak.i just wokeup wif my messy retarded hairstyle plus big jersey (pass down from brudder) walking like a zombie 'salam' them.my freaking laser uncle was like ''eh kau pakai kain ah sarong!''intend to say that i can't wear my shorts.its not that short of a shorts,u get what i mean,like not hotpants?its shorts but knee length.okay what kan?baru bgn tdo what?malas ah nk change.then the laser uncle's wife which is my laser auntie(padan la tu, husband and wife)look at me one kind.cos i do seems to give this wtf look and walk towards the kitchen 'voluntarily' helping mum.you guys are sucha hassle what?janji palsu.kasi timing mrepek -______- and after which force me to siap fast to go out gether.wtf suke ati aku la nk keluar what time.
lastly, for me,raya is all about waiting,testing my patience.really.wait for siblings to come,wait for relatives to make a move to next house, wait for people to get ready,come visting.wait for this and that, bla bla bla.sucha hassle!
aniwaes,i do not wish to have any raya outings nimore after today.today maybe shall be my last.LOL.niwaes,(tkde link jap) wassup with our neighbour country,lotsa crimes committed.murder,rob,kidnap,rape,'dump' babies.im thankful for being in sucha peaceful country!peace! ^ ^
i hope this friday's photoshoot turns out good!...hope no problem arouse...hmm...lalala.
a gift from one of my cuzzy.she seems to noe im obsessed wif this BREADOU stuff.there was once i squeeze the stuff at the shop till its squashed up and KOYAK.HAHA.tragic pe.
xoxo
fieza
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